Monday, August 25, 2008
Bible verses for everyone. will await OneOne,come term 4.
And now I never want to say goodbye.
Am i THAT forgettable?
I mean, woah. I'm not asking for something like
OH I HEAAAARRRT YOU, everday.
But to replace that... with something, that...
Omg. No. awesome shit great stuff.
Thanks for letting me know i'm that easily forgotten.
Is this because of recess?
OKay, i know.
This is payback, for what i've been like,
for the past 3203460187263 years.
I realise now.
Well, i'm sorry.
I wasn't as nice a person to offer you the same thing i can do now.
I wasn't as independent a person to offer you what i can do now.
I wasn't the one that was there for you like I can do now.
It was only a matter of time
But too bad, a twist of fate,
and that's all gone,
because you didn't give me enough time to show you what i could be
and sorry.
because someone else had to be the one to do it before me
It's my fault they got to you first?
outcast.
What am i to do? you never realised that I did think of you as the person who can offer me, and has been offering me what i've been needing, for as long as i can remember?
I'm sorry i'm talking the way i am now. But just replacing us like that.
What of the rest of us. Maybe they can live with it.
but did you spare a thought for me?
no. because it's always based on one's assumptions.
I'm sorry I'm a sadist that thinks that everyone should be grieving about what we don't have anymore.
But, no. you can disagree. you are disagreeing. You're having the time of your life, without us.
You've never known what ostracism means. that day i thought, there was still.
a little hope. Revival, maybe. but it's just a contradiction.
Everything. Even the things we've said, that i thought could never be replaced.
But no, it's hypocrisy. All of it. I see no change.
Maybe it's just a one sided view. Maybe i've not made an effort to hear your side.
But you won't. I'm sure. Because. because. you just don't care.
Who's the one being selfish. Would that be you?
Or is it me? Maybe our personalities are too strong.
Maybe we've known each other too long a time
I don't want to be the one that restricts you.
but there's a green monster called jealousy.
it tends to do that to a person.
It's tearing me up now.
I'll never force anything out of you.
I've always been waiting for you to tell me of your own accord.
But, well, i guess you think it's cuz i already know.
Or cuz, you think i don't ask, and thus don't want to know?
Is that it?
I don't think there's an answer, nor an end to this post.
I could just type. forever.
disappointment.
It's overwhelming now.
the feeling of being ditched.
Which part of this post isn't contradictory?
i'm asking myself these questions.
It's not hate yet, i'm not holding it against anyone.
I definately don't hate you. i think its the exact opposite really.
Maybe it's because I don't want to lose you
and i think you deserve the best
and it hurts me to see that, the best for you is not with me?
Time doesn't really make up for everything.
Sure it helps.
But look at the time you've been friends with them.
Compare that with us.
hell.
But look at what you'd do for them.
compare that with me.
hell.
What? the answer, now that lies with you
because i'd be making an assumption AGAIN.
as you do.
And, maybe it's because we're too much alike. now that's a contradiction by itself too huh?
how can being so alike be a fatal flaw?
Gosh, this sounds confusing. I've thought too deep, even i don't know what i'm saying.
No wonder, i'm screwing up in school.
By the way, the article in today's New Paper is utterly appalling.
Gah, i'll just let it out.
I prayed for an hour yesterday
maybe today, I'll pray for two.
Come the holidays, there will be not a time for us to catch up.
You'll be with them
either that, or you'll be talking to me about them.
something i definately don't want to know.
We're that far apart, you just think we're too close
and that I can handle it.
Whatever happened to us?
Was it just the loss?
You were as quick as hell to make up for it though.
I notice it's never been you that's been left out.
You've got backup.
I only seem like i do.
Because, do they really compare?
Here come the holidays.
Gasp. Drama's due.
31 days to EOYs.
21st of Sept, Marissa's departure.
And this saturday, lisa.
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Great. Thanks Nicole Ann Gunn.
your picture to me last year, when i was being THIS emo, just popped up.
thanks loads.
Rar.
Who'll be there to rescue me now?
I'm sorry, for letting you down.
So let's all hold something good in our hands
to offer to those in need.
Labels: emoing
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