Walking on Sunshine;

Saturday, September 20, 2008

I'm just going to say that.

I never knew I could hurt like this.
yeah cheesy cliche.
Whatever know.

Insane jealousy is driving me mad, i can't put it down in words.

dang.
the house two doors away from me have two cases of dengue

Maybe they'll let me have a bite so i can get sick and die
And then the world will be happy.

Because dang. where did my best friend go?
Since when do i need to ask?

Damn it know. I'm just too ~~shit~~ )*&@^)(&@^(&^#@*&%#)*^%&(!^%@)&^!@_#(mailto:*&@&)$%5E&*)@%5E#&*)^@#^*)@&^#&*)@%#&*) to put it in words.

Congratulations, Caitlin.
I think you're going through the best screw up in your life.

Hi. Congratulations for finding out I'm so forgettable and shit.

I dont know. I'm just going to shut up and blame it on PMS.
And you guys have hell of none of a choice but to believe me.

Because damn you. I don't rar.
Frigging loner problems. it's at this point of time, where i become so irratable at something(one) else, that i scare the rest of my real friends away.

And then i become a real bitch and all my friends will be goners.
I'll be a freaking loner now.
Thank you.

And yeah. Don't say like Oh, i'll be there for you and shit.
because i know as much as you do.
That i annoy the fag out of you.

Yeah. That's what you guys do to me.
Use me and kick me around. and then use me some more

It's just too much for words. I'm going to dao everyone.
And i'm going to be emo.
And i'm not going to tell anyone anything.

Unless someone has the willpower to comfort me.
IDK FAG LAH.

The pressure's simply getting to me alright?
How many problems do you want me to solve?
hell i'm not wonderwoman know.

I'm getting tired of you pushing me 'round
Dragging me down, making a sound
Because you wanna I guess that's why I like messing with you
Putting you through a lesson or two
Because I'm gonna
Before I go my own way I just gotta say
Leave me alone
Get out of my face I'm tired of ~~love~~
Feeling so misplaced Time for you to go
You still know I'm better off on my own, so oh
Leave me alone
This isn't gonna work D
on't call me on the phone
Because I'm all out of words I'll face the unknown
Thinking about all the ways that I've grown, so oh
Leave me alone, leave me alone
Leave me alone
There was the time I thought you were the one
Having some fun, getting it done
What an illusion 'Cause you were trying to take control of me
That couldn't be, I need to be free
Of this confusion
Don't give me a guilt trip
Because I'm so over it
Leave me alone
Get out of my face
I'm tired of ~~love~~
Feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
You still know I'm better off on my own, so oh
Leave me alone
This isn't gonna work
Don't call me on the phone
Because I'm all out of words
I'll face the unknown
Thinking about all the ways that I've grown, so oh
Leave me alone, leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone, leave me alone
Leave me alone
Don't turn around and don't look back I see right through all your selfless acts
Oh Leave me alone
Get out of my face I'm tired of love
Feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
You still know I'm better off on my own, so oh
Leave me alone
This isn't gonna work
Don't call me on the phone
Because I'm all out of words
I'll face the unknown
Thinking about all the ways that I've grown, so oh
Leave me alone, leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone, leave me alone

I'm alone
Hiding in the dark
I'm looking for a light to come and rescue me

I sleepI rise
Hear your denies
Endlessly inside
It's crazy but

(Sometimes I feel like)
I want to run away
(Sometimes I feel like)
I've got to get away
(One day you will see)
Another side of me
(My life I command)
It's not the way that you planned

Leave me alone(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
Out on my own(Out on my own)
Leave me alone
What do you want from me
Do you dream of a life
Your life through me
Myself My time
In one we unite
I don't ever want to be that girl you want it to be

The lioney loanshark has problems too k.

Mona's got her ~~new,hooligan~~ classmates,

Christie's got her subway clique and council,

Kristel's gone silent and out of touch,

Mel's got her own classmates,

Cait Choo feels left out, and i dont know why,

Tiff's got other OneOners,

Jane's got her 1/2 clique,

Nat's got her other friends.

I've only got one heart.

Right now only Gwen's my crying shoulder, and cuz she's a busy as hell, i can't turn to her all the time.

Mmm. As i've said. The Toots are shrinking in to oblivion.

You can't do this to me.

you just can't. Not now, not ever. You can't.

No we're the TOOTS. the toots. The crazy bunch of people who own the round table, the Toots! Endless days of parties, sleepovers, barbeques, hopeless attempts to study, the swimming, the pool, the trick or treats, the surprise parties, the only ones with a common camera, the ones who own rollerblading, the ones who love each other so much to bits even more than themselves

THE TOOTS. you can't throw that away. you can't you can't you can't you can't. I've kind of lost everything if i lose you guys. I've hardly bothered to make any other friends after i'd met you guys. And if you leave me now, i'll be alone. You can't do that to me. you simply can't.

I don't have anybody to turn to. It's just because of recess and our classes right?

Even if it's not, i'm going to convince myself it is. Come on now):

Bye, i'm going to break down now, see you on the other side.

There, i got it all out in the open. Read it and weep. Come on, it's going to be so awkward now. And. Shit. how now.

Y Your's Truly1:10 PM