Monday, October 13, 2008
Today's Ellen DeGenere's show was the best huh?
MICHELLE OBAMA
AND THE
JONAS BROTHERScouldn't have asked for more. Haha, hopefully the jonas clan supports the Obamas. Yessss.
Well, i finished The Mysterious Benedict Society and the Perilious Journey today.
My eyes hurt now. It's like 440 pages, and i read it in two days, i only read 90 pages yesterday.
I went to Anabel's house in the morning, presumably for the class comm discussion.
It was a non existent one where everyone was stoning. I had a little bit of hope? I don't know, but their faces and attitudes weren't exactly encouraging.
I mean, i didn't want to lead discussion, because i do not one to be known as the one who goes power crazy, and takes authority and all that. Technically it isn't my responsibility, and someone who IS in charge should take control.
But since nobody was in the mood, i felt i had to do something, but in the end we didn't get any where either, and it was kinda pointless. I was quite disappointed really, because yesterday i had sort of a calling to share the gospel and approach our problems in a Christian way
But i was quite hesitant, and i know i shouldn't be, i mean i was so confident last night that i could really help solve the problems we're facing. I prayed so hard yesterday, and i really thought i could overcome the situation. But today proved me wrong, but i'll try again, and have another go. I really think there is no other way than helping the class biblically.
Have to give them a push in their faith and values and morals. But see, who am i to do it? you can say not everyone in OneOne are Christ believers and all that. It's going to be hard to sway them.
And i mean, if the comm couldn't even be bothered today(i believe some of them are reading this right now, and it's going to put me in the awkward position,but i just need to say this) then how can we expect to help the class.
Our own stubborn pride is standing in the way of solving our problems. I try in the least, to get people on your feet and have a discussion on how to improve things, but instead you just pin me down and totally criticize the solution.
I hate it when people have nothing but criticism and no solution. Gosh, make the best out of something okay. Some one said that we're hypocrites, yes i sort of agree in that sense. But some of us aren't willing to change our nature and perception and views on things.
So we're just going to procrastinate and let people think we're in the class comm because of popularity? Please, spare me. Again, we're just putting our OWN assumptions on how people are going to react blah blah blah, ever think it's because of the way you approach them
I never really wanted to say this, but sometimes we can be a little harsh and disrespectful. And we've just GOT to kick the habit of "she don't friend me then i don't friend her lor"
If everyone thought like that, then we'd just all be avoiding ourselves and life and all that it brings. Can you SAFELY say that you're on good terms with everyone in class? Don't lie, straight after you said that, some of us actually stereotyped people and made assumptions on their reactions.
That's not very friendly in my books. I don't know how to convey this in words, i've never been able to hold people's attention for a long time. And you see since things have become so complicated, it takes a longer time to to explain things.
So if you guys don't even want to hear my attempt to say something then you might as well shut up and go home. If we want the class to be what they should be, then you guys also have to be persuasive,convincing,spontaneous, and enthusiastic as you can.
Gosh, it won't work if your attitude is like that. Gah, i don't want to be known as preachy, but i believe that i have to bring all my beliefs and morals into the situation. But some of you guys, i mean, you can't even accept that. So once again i say, this is going no where with me without puttin God first.
He's telling me that i have to use His Word to guide us through this. And now i pray for the strength and will to overcome my fear of sharing the word with the rest of us, not that strong in their faith right?
I'm going to use cell discussions and sermon notes to help solve the problem, but it will hardly work without biblical references. So i just wonder, i just wonder if, you know, the people will accept it? I just have to trust that they will. It's not going to work out any other way.
No such luck. There is no luck.
Well, anyway. after a somewhat unproductive day,i find my computer is malfunctioning and it shut down itself and refuses to restart :( And i didn't even get to back up my files.
grrr.
Also, i don't want to be known as the hypocrite, come on, i'm new to this. Give me a break sometimes, i can't do everything. I have to pace myself slowwwwly. Don't just throw questions all over the place. Some people just need to change their mindset, they just don't know that i'm implying.
Labels: faith, marking day
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