& It's not about happy endings.
Or who gets Prince Charming.
It's about that once upon a time...
Holler, nownow make nice alright? Name yourself 'unwanted visitor' if you really can't control yourself.
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hearts all over the world tonight

Friday, January 30, 2009
Harboured feelings

Hey.

Well.


I am so glad that I found out that people are going through the same notions as I am.

Its comforting to know someone feels the same way. Its taught me that you can't judge a person totally on their first impressions, may they be good or bad.
"Who we are is who we were"

It got me thinking, and reading people's blogs, especially those who've been blogging since like 2006, and even before, its so cool to read about all you've been through and how you've grown. Yes, its drastically different. I'm obviously not the same person i used to be...


2008 was a turning point for me. The last part of the year. But what i've noticed is that people(whom i greatly respect, by the way) have also been through quite a bit, negative stuff that is, even after, well... God. I mean, the depression we feel isn't self pity. Its just something else, and i'm glad that i've found people i can relate to.


The sad thing now is that maturity is very different for my and my other peers. Not physically, physically we're the same. Mindset we're the same. Spiritually, now that's the loophole. The best people to confide in about every little single little itty bitty thing (WITHOUT worrying that they'll judge you) would have to be cell.


But i only see them like once a week. I don't know, my relationships in school are sort of getting better. But I just don't think we're on the same page sometimes. I hope to change that somehow ): But it'll take quite alot of time.


And apparently, for some people. You know how you don't know much about a person, but through some sources, (via blogs etc) you find out about some of their past, and what they were like before you get to know them. And after reading some stuff, your respect for them either deepens or lessens.

For example, you respect someone, and you read something that he/she said about 3 years ago, which you can totally relate to, so you'd respect him/her more because you know that he/she has been as humble as that, and is still what they are today...


Well you know what I'm saying? Sort of get the gist of it. Its hard to describe. And similarly, like in a bad way, you respect Obama, but your respect for him lessens when yo uread that he's okay with abortion, and was a smoker. wdv. (Doesn't really affect me really, just an example)


And seeing these wonderful people grow and change, it reassures me that its normal. But also, i have to remind myself that i can't rely on something that was written 3 years ago. Obviously things have changed, but i just don't know if some things remain totally the same throughout your whole life. I don't know. but i just won't place my hopes on that. urggh.


November 26, 2006.
(I know for a fact that two things there, have changed.) But it just says alot more about someone, the fact that it never occurred to you that someone was capable of such feelings. I mean that's deep, seriously. You don't see other people writing like that.

I believe that everyone has to be a loser before they can become a winner.
Like all the mistakes in the past have brought me all to this, matured, and the past I wish i could erase. Its just embarrassing. So Ryan, Gracelynn, Hanya and Tricia, I salute you.

I have a weird need to compare myself with other people and see how much i have in common with them, the more the better, that's strange innit. Its annoying sometimes. The smallest of leedle things. I'm like yo wake up, why does that even matter.


Erin is entertaining. We can hear Nico teo from across the room, and its very amusing, Erin makes her sound more amusing. Like during MATHHH! you can hear her saying "But i don't get it! Why doesn't my method work? During exam i do eveeerrrrrrrrthing correctly and don't miss anything out you knoooooooow."

Erin nearly fell off her seat when she heard that. Yeah it might not seem funneh now, but you should hear nico say it during CLASS. you can toadally hear her from my seat la! And after awhile, we calm down and erin's still laughing(hysterically) and so i start laughing at her instead. Wow. laughed so much. And the laughter spread across the whole class!


This went on for about... (History, double science, double math) 5 periods. Of nico teo and erin. My goodness.


Tag replies! :D

Erin Awesome: But on a lighter note, what one is good at makes up for what one is bad in, so don't worry too much because you won't be able to laugh at Nico. (You see, dear readers, what did i tell you)

30 Jan 09, 17:28 Erin Awesome: You know, Cait, you can't be TOTALLY against abortion. What if an underaged girl got raped and got pregnant? What if the unborn baby has a defect that will make it suffer for the rest of its life? (I know I know... yeah, since you put it that way)

29 Jan 09, 23:34 cait choo: sigh, i really don't know what to say, besides the fact that chinese is frigging BORING, and that Ms Yap is cruel. sigh, ok, why can't i catch you online huh? (Dearest, do your best to avoid touchy subjects. Hahaha, i don't know, i never see YOU online)

Won't you break free, won't you break free get up and dance.


Y Your's Truly11:05 PM
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Living for your Name

Heya.


Kaykaykaykay. I was wondering (as usual) about what Obama said. He said he was for abortion.
And well, Catholics are against it. (We were discussing this through OM) And Gwen was asking me if the other Christian denominations stood for abortion, because well, Obama's Christian. But i don't know what his denomination is.

Makes you wonder. Because I for one am against taking away innocent lives who haven't even had the chance to set foot on this planet. Yeah I'm going to bring it up during cell.


For my day? HAHAH! English was funny. Miss Tay's shoes are Funkayyye!(Aaw Erin)

Miss Tay came from 2/3, and then she walked into our class saying, "Is there a Caitlin here? I know there are two, but which one is friends with Cezanne?"

So i was like uhhhh me? Then she gave the diaoo!(-.-|||) face and she said "Sigh, Cezanne says hi, DON'T! make me take any more messages, she's very bold."

CONGRATULATIONS CEZANNE(; You're daaaannnng retarded!!! I love you laaa! heehee. Yeah then i didn't have a good lunch! ): Although company was AWESOME. I love Jane, Mona and SHI YING!(HEARTHEARTHEART) but lunch was STUPID. I have eaten the same confounded meal 4 times in a row for two days straight. I didn't have go-home buddy so i wuzz all alone on the journey back. Tiff had OM. ):


But i had some time to reflect! (: And well, i got a kick out of it. And I was bloghopping, i managed to get to gracelynn's blog, (gosh cleo thinks i stalk people) But anyway, I was reading her past posts, I don't know, the way she writes is intriguing. And I came across one post where she conveyed my exact emotions sometimes.


Rah. we are very confused peoplez. IDK but i feel like i can totally relate. And i shan't rip. I Shall Quote. Its just a must have. But its just uncanny. Sounds familiaaaaaaar. But I aim to move FORWARD. with an audacity of hope I don't know but it sounds familiar.


"I think sec one is the most memorable year in my life.
The year I changed, and the year I began to change."


"I want new confidence.
I want to know God better.
And I canot believe what I just wrote above this.

I wished I could expressed how I feel right now.
The whole confusion, but I'm tired and I'm sure even if I wasn't, I wouldn't be able to.

I have a tendency to read what others write and at times, they are able to express my feelings and I get to rip this sentence off.
My fingers clicked the mouse to a new tab and then I clicked the x.
I know I can do it.

I dowand to be shallow brained.
I want to learn to extract emotions.

I will attain confidence."


I just did something ironic. But don't you really think that some people just word their emotions so nicely... I'll do it myself. Soon. I have been doing it but they don't come out right, ever.

I swear I could beat my old self up ): So gung ho( just popped into my head but idk what it means) I was so pigsquiggly last time URRGHH. Its very annooooying.


My brother very strongly believes that his voice is breaking. ANDDD! he's PMS ing or something. Super grumpy puss.



Link Ama, Sheryl, Val, Pet, Gowri.


King of Glory we dance before your throne;


I cannot wait for church.

Labels: Joy., Meldee

Y Your's Truly9:18 PM
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Spirit Wings

Gin Yin and I were panicking on our laurels last night mulling over today's debate. Which both sides went on rather unconvincingly.


Ever wish you were someone else? well obviously right.
And now i've outgrown that. I'm satisfied with God gave me.
But after going for dance today, I'm like, why am i the only person who doesn't seem to be as talented as the others?

I mean, i wish i had a pinch bit more of technique, energy, confidence, good facial expression, better lines, and good choreo memory.

Kind of wishing i was um. You know...


Yeah. But then i realised, hey. I can do this. i can get it even though i'm slower. I can execute things properly. But actually, i've never really heard any compliments on my dancing, which i've tried to push aside. Okay nevermind, scratch that last bit. I have been complimented a lil bit. I'm just comparing myself with other people now.


Right. So anyway, i would just like to remind myself to keep real, even though i so wish i could be someone with more skill. I realise that I wouldn't be the same person as the one i'm so thankful that God's working in right now. I wouldn't have achieved that relationship status with God as i have now. I wouldn't have been at the amazing Real Camp or TNG as I went/ am going to.


I realised that I wouldn't have my wonderful parents, and all the things I've been blessed with. Sure, i'd be a better dancer, but it wouldn't be me. And sometimes i just lose sight of that. So i have to keep reminding myself that nothing is worth being someone else.


But yet i still hope to become a better person. I wanna experience God again, I wanna do great things in His name! yes I can.


Yep, and Glenn's post is just so apt right now. And i too, do the same.

www.rant-magazine.blogspot.com

"Oh Lord, i wanna be like Paul. Resilient and firm. Disciplined and unencumbered. Determined and resolute.

But i too wanna be like David. A man after Your heart.

Nehemiah, the one who travailed and envisioned the re-building of the walls.

Jeremiah, the weeping prophet of compassion.

Lastly, i don't wanna be any of them. I wanna be Glenn. The quiet spirit. Make me Glenn. I love to be Glenn not because Glenn is good. But, because, You have made Glenn who he is. You loved him, still do love him and will be loving him.

YOU ARE GLENN, IN WHOM, I AM WELL PLEASED."


Lord, I don't want to be a Paul, a David, a Nehemiah, Jeremiah or a Glenn, Lord, no matter how great these people have been/are. I just pray that like you've worked in them, you'll do likewise for me. Father I just pray you continue to bless me with the purity and faith of a child, I want to be YOUR Caitlin father. Just someone pure in thought, in mind, and in action. Thank you for being so real to me God. And I know that we'll all be history makers. Amen.


Y Your's Truly8:41 PM
Tuesday, January 27, 2009


Chinese New Year... The only time of year where you can wake up to the sound of lion dancing. Twice. In a single morning. We went visiting yesterday, and I woke up at 11, mum was seriously angry because Justin refused to wear his new clothes. -.-


Y Your's Truly11:05 AM
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Let your hair down

Comment and...
1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. You must post this on yours.


For Dwight!

1. Your legs are hairy and can trap flies (:
2. I'm challenging you to wear a dress and prance around TNG.
3. Electric blue.
4. Hi you're awesome, i'm awesome, let's camwhore!
5. Dwight Chew wrote at 8:25pm
your birthday... feb 19, 1936. hahaha
(Facebook, and later on I told you that we were family friends during watchnight and you said you were hungry -.- )
6. Rabbit Reindeer
7. Dude, when did you get tongues? :O






LurbChew!


FUDGENUGGETS! TIMOTHY'S GOING TO AUSTRALIA! ):

The same God that created the earth and all its abundance
The same God that parted the red sea
The same God that made time
The same God that fed the five thousand
The same God that's got the power to send fire from the heavens
The same God that walked on the water
The same God that made the blind see
The same God that rose the dead
The same God that healed the sick
The same God that is above all.


The one that dwells in my heart. The one that's the centre of my life. The one that's shown us mercy from sin to sin. The same God that died for us and saved us all.

Y Your's Truly6:38 PM Wow. I found out that daddy could speak in tongues. Yesterday was my parents' anniversary. We went for dinner at horticulture park. Wow, the flora there is seriously WOW. The design and everything, all the plants are darn cool 8)

Awesome place to take photos. But my photo buddy, wasn't very enthu ): Justin aiyoyo. But the light wasn'nt very nice either. My cam doesn't do night photos very well.


)): Yeah. We had dinner at Kha. The toilet's cool HAHA. that's about it. :D


Y Your's Truly5:12 PM
Friday, January 23, 2009
Forever and a day


YOWZA.

After CNY celebrations, the raffles team stayed back for debating topics. Raah. Lynette Chang is so mad. She suggested that we act during our debate. WTH! AHHAHA! we saw Gin Yin's hysterical side. REALLY hysterical side.

Caitlin Choo ah. So pure man. Your thoughts are SO CORRUPT YOU IDIOT. Spoy my namesake. You spoy everyttinnnk! HAHA kidding la chooey. Tiff is so darn nice okay She just came back from buying her own lunch and we didn't know. So when we came back we were just kidding saying, Ehhh why neh buy for us? Then she said, oh you want? I go back out.


We were like NOOO! ARE YOU KIDDING! And she went back anyway. TOO NICE ALR LA. So nice. The world totally needs more people like snail. Raaawwwr. Then we were talking about Farquhar and his cockfighting. ee so gory. who wants to see chickens kill each other.

Olden time people are so weird. Mmm then we digressed alot. Suddenly started talking about evolution. Gin Yin doesn't believe in God and supports homos. eeer. And Su Lynn asked who Adam and Eve were (Is Eve a girl or guy?) Hurrrmmm.

Went home after lunch with Tiff and let her hear Hillsong. (: she's so cute. haha. Umm. Mum's department party thing was er. Anticlimax. Finally did get a chance to talk to dad about camp though. I FOUND OUT THAT MY OLD MAN COULD SPEAK TONGUES, AND HE DID NOT EVEN TELL MUM. :O wow. But he lost it. ): So sad! I wish he'll continue going back to church leei.


I do not understand Obama's inaugaration speech. RAAWWWWRRRR.


Y Your's Truly10:39 PM
Thursday, January 22, 2009


Gah debates. OXFORD. Oxymoron. Bull Shitake Mushrooms. Haiyooo! BLUE HOUSE FTW!

Ahh i'm so tired maaan. Whoo! Talked to Gillz today. They played STC. Yeeeah. I saw Dot yesterday at Bishan, past RI. Hmmm. Today was fine.

(:

Didn't do my book review but Dr. Maha didn't ask for it. So i got of the hook. yay i'm sitting with Sister Erin now (: Yeaaah.

K anyway. short summary of the day. it was fine.
(:

rehearsals were fun and i really miss our PSLs. Like ccrrrraaazzzy. And whoo! dance seniors (:


Y Your's Truly10:15 PM
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Rid me of myself

K, so the second part of my day... Well, we ended school at one, then went for lunch with Nicole lau and Charmaine, and gwen tagged along, but they wanted to eat KFC, so gwen and i were like eew, so we went to Subway. YUMMO. Gwen eats like a tortoise.

Then OMG LA. on the way down the stairs, Su Lynn and gen were talking about tennis, then suddenly we bumped in to Ms JoTeo. So gen as usual, was talking at the top of her lungs and she was speaking in a grammatically incorrect manner, "Come what come what?" (As in 'come in in what position (For tennis)' "

So Ms Teo stood at the bottom of the staircase, and pointed her finger at Lau, WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY? Lau was all wasn't me wasn't me! Then all of us in front were like :O! What's going on! And then Gen, behind us was like, ummm, it was me...


HAHAHHAA! So funny! Then Mr. Fausta Tan came and he was like what happened!! HAHAHH! OMG.

Knyway, we went back to school at around 2, and did some work. Val was in class, and she took candids. yay. I like candids now. They're COOL 8)

Yup, they all ah... break rules ah. Yeah then we went for AEP. which was okay... We did some cool making yor own brushes thing. And then we had to do a still life piece. And for SOVA we learnt about Andy Goldsworthy, seriously cool la his works. its all natural, he's an environmental artist. And does sculpture using nature's matierials.


Yeahhh.






Y Your's Truly9:33 PM
Monday, January 19, 2009
Let me know you are near

Draw me close to you, Blessed be your name, In your hands, I could sing of your love forever, Kingdom come, This Kingdom, Always, Never Let me Go, Open up the heavens, To know your name, The time has come, Take all of me, Look to you, All I need is you, Fall


Hi. Love those songs. Need them. I'm so glad the com's finally fixed. Wow i've been sleeping really late, lately. Today I had AEP. Raaaawwwrr. Its Joshua Chan's Birthday. :O anywayy. I'm tired. end of story.

ttfn


Y Your's Truly9:22 PM
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Friends in High places


I found a friend who died for me.

Greetings. :D K, my testimony came out today in The Next Wave! So here it is, they cut my paragraphs from 32 to 26, and it doesn't make sense. Some bits. So here's the original one that could not fit 6 pages. :D Yeah, thanks Glenn And Dwight, lovvve yall.

Church was good, post more on sophisticaited, but here's my 2165 words.

A face-to-face encounter with the Almighty

For the past few years, I’ve been leading a meaningless, empty life. I never knew that I could have a relationship with God. Having a dead, 2-dimensional faith, God was as comparable to a 4-leaf clover, or wishing upon something as random as a star. But entering TNG helped me a lot, maybe it was the awesome worship team, or the engaging sermon topics, or the cell bonding time, but whatever it was, something kept bringing me back to church week after week. As I learnt more, I opened up to God and softened my heart. It was my ‘New Beginning’.

However, I still had old habits that I carried over. Not praying very often, I stuttered, mumbled and babbled during prayer. So whenever I got picked to pray for cell, as much as I wanted to, I had problems with that. After cringing, what was going through my head was “Oh, shoot.” even though I so badly wanted to be able to encourage someone with a prayer. So the last thing I expected to achieve from camp, was a gift from God.

When Glenn, as Bonjour’s mentor, asked me what I expected from my (first) church camp, I told him “To get to know God better, and get to know more people in TNG” Know God better, yes. Talking face to face with Him, no. Apart from that, I also wanted to be able to help other people, in terms of encouraging, advising and praying for them. On the second day of camp, after settling in after our 5-hour journey, the campers sat through one of Aunty Mary’s workshop after having breakfast and devotion with Bonjour. We learnt how to hear God’s voice, and I did as she told. Said a quiet prayer to God, asking Him to help me silence out the voices of Satan, the world, and my own, the inviting the Holy Spirit into me.

Upon quiet meditation, I flipped my Bible open to Ecclesiastes 1, and this was God’s first revelation to me, not self-realization. The chapter described how we were living a meaningless life, because we’re all blinded by the physical, material world. About how the flesh lusts for worldly things, which prevents us from seeing God’s plan for us. These were my answers to where God was during the last few years, and I was greatly amazed.

The workshop continued with Aunty Mary giving us a red dot, to mark out where our relationship with God was going. This time, I stumbled upon Matthew 5:8 “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.” During group sharing before the workshop, we were sharing the meanings of our names, as part of Mission Possible. My name possesses the meaning ‘pure’, so when I saw that verse, I got a glimpse of how real God was.

I shared these two revelations that God showed me with Bonjour, and I got similar responses.

That night was ministry night. I was so excited about everything, and I was just so touched by the other testimonies that were shared during camp, I went to worship with an open heart. For the first time in a long time, the worship songs spoke to me. Everyone started tearing, and getting on their knees, and while the Worship leaders were leading us through “Consuming Fire”, I felt a sudden surge of warmth from my insides. It was indescribable, it was like my soul was on fire but I wasn’t burning. It was a heat so strong that consumed my whole body, but my body was still intact. I knew then that the Holy Spirit was dwelling in me. Then Rebecca, my group leader, came over to pray for me. She prayed for ‘Child-like faith” that defies and exceeds all human logic, the strongest kind of faith possible.

After that, I had a really strong urge to pray for someone. The first person I could find was Alison, my group mate, cell mate, and school mate. I prayed for her, and both of us were in shock. During the time I was praying for her, my mind was completely blank, and the words came out fluently, without pausing. I managed to pray for a few other people, including Grace (Ang), my cell leader, and Calvin, my group leader. It was a different experience, because they were my seniors and I had a great respect for them, so being able to pray for them blew me away.

Also, I prayed for two others in my cluster, Nicole and Jian Hao. As familiar faces, it was easier to pray for them, also because they were my age. But somehow, after praying for them, I felt as if we were now connected, all of us children of God. The closing song for Day 2’s ministry night was “All I want is You”. Pastor Reuben said that he felt that this song nicely phrased everything that all the campers were currently experiencing. And when the lyrics were flashed on the screen, I started tearing. The first lines of the song were: “I’ve waited all my life to be here face to face, I never knew that I could feel this kind of grace”

When Pastor Reuben sent us off, his last words to us were this: This is only the beginning. Expect greater things tomorrow.

I kept his words in mind, but threw it to the back of my head, really not believing that God could do anymore than He already had. How wrong I was. On the last night of camp, my life was changed forever.

Once again, everyone was on their knees during worship. This time, when I looked up around me, everyone was being prayed for. Everyone except me. I was not expecting any more, so being on my knees for a long time, I decided to sit down. My feet were going to give way, my ankles were aching, and I felt like I was going to fall. But instead, I shot right up to my feet. Startled, I looked around, and I spotted the sec 3 boys prayer for each other. They were lying on the floor and crying out with such desperation, that I started to cry myself.

Then, Pastor Reuben came over, and he placed his hands on my head. He broke out into tongues, and then reverted back into English, saying “ Every little bit of her, Lord, everything she can handle, every little bit of her, Lord, fill her up”. Soon after, Uncle Allan came over, and he placed his hands on my head, and then broke out into tongues as well. This time, when he reverted back to English, he said “Thank you Lord, for Caitlin’s desire to know you more, and her desperation to fulfill your calling.”

Calling? Wow. I had a hunch that it was about trying to impact people, and sharing the Gospel, but I was still unsure. Since the previous night, I had a strange urge to pray for Ryan (Goh). And I didn’t know why, I mean, my cell leader’s brother? I didn’t even know him that well, plus, he is a figure of respect in church, and two years my senior. After finishing my prayer for Alison and Charlene once more, I looked up, and at that minute, I saw Ryan looking at me, after saying Amen.

Again, I suddenly got to my feet and went to him. After praying for him, he affirmed me. The first lines he said were: "After I finished praying for Aaron, I looked up, and my eyes fell upon you across the room. I heard God telling me to come pray for you, do you believe it?” Yes, more than ever. Then, he too, placed his hands on my head, and broke out into tongues.

“Double the portion, Lord, double the portion. Everything she can handle. I know that you will use Caitlin, Father, she will be a woman of power, a speaker, to change lives. She’s more precious to you then any other gem or precious stone in the world, Lord. And you will use her wisely” My calling. At that point of time, God felt so real to me, and I was changed. Deep inside my soul, I was cleansed.

It was like being born again.

After Ryan prayed for me, I said a quiet prayer for the people with dead faith, and the ones you were unable to come for camp. Then my group mate, Eugene (Lam) came to Charlene, Alison and myself. He told us about his experience that night. And I was once again, astonished. He said that he had a sudden urge to pray for Uncle Jeff, even though he didn’t know who he was. And when he looked up, Uncle Jeff had also finished praying for someone else. What God told Eugene was that through praying for others, God will also minister to you.

Funny. That’s what I heard the quiet voice in my head say. It was oddly comforting. Then Eugene prayed for us, and he told me that he had a vision of me painting. Painting vigorously. Painting. And he said that when I turned the painting around, the people who saw it started breaking down into tears. A masterpiece.

During group sharing, I shared the whole experience with Bonjour. And after that, Glenn looked me straight in the eye and said “So the question now is, Are you ready?” I didn’t know. I started questioning, I wasn’t sure; this was all happening too fast. Me? For real? Me? I mean, surely Lord, you’ve got the wrong person. But that’s how it is. Our God works in wondrous ways.

“He uses the weak to lead the strong”

“Are you ready to lead? It’s not going to be an easy journey, but God’s with you every step of the way. And when I see that cornerstone in your eyes, God tells me that I was born to serve people like you. So who knows? One day, I’ll probably be serving under you, don’t be surprised.”

Glenn. Glenn, who’s such a strong person of the faith, Glenn, who’s such a confident and devoted leader of the church. Glenn, my group mentor, with more interesting, life-changing testimonies than anyone else I know. Glenn.

That’s when it all came back to me.

The guest speaker on missions Sunday asked this question : What is 1000 kilometers long, and can go around the length of the earth 3 times? The answer : The number of people that do not know Christ. And then I relived the moment when Pastor Reuben told us : The more immediate question, TNG, is how you are going to get this entire auditorium filled. I want you to go out there and do something today.

At that point of time, I wanted to be that difference. And now, I know that God will make me that difference.

During group sharing, Colin, started trembling. Glenn said that this was an indication that his relationship with God just took one step forward. It was incredible how God was ministering to so many people at a time. Within Bonjour, we were affirming each other while sharing our experiences with one another.

Well, what can I say? After God just speaks to you like this, there’s just no turning back. He sparked a change inside of me, He’s altered my life, He’s seen my future, and He’s been faithful to me, without me even knowing it. And that is why; I believe that there is a change occurring. During camp, more than 200 lives were changed. Back home, I got the news that a family friend got involved in a car accident. The same time I was praying for people back at home.

After that accident, he said that his life was changed, and he had never felt so grateful to God in his entire life. I looked it up, his name held the meaning “God is gracious”, and during devotion that night, I was pointed to Ephesians 2:8 “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—”

Through everything I’ve heard from all those around me, all those in different areas of my life, I do believe a change is occurring. TNG is growing, we’re past the year of new beginnings, its time we go forth, and spread the Word. And for those of us who have yet to experience the works of Christ, all I can say is wait upon the Lord. God is never early, but he is never late.

I believe, that TNG will rise up, because we’re a chosen generation, as Psalm 78 suggests. “I see a generation, rising up to take their place, with selfless faith”.

My chains have been broken, my life’s been healed, my eyes are open. Chris is revealed.

Amen.

Y Your's Truly9:21 PM
Saturday, January 17, 2009
CCA orientation

Whooo! JOIN DANCE JOIN DANCE! ZXZXZX! yeah. Took loads of photos (: Yay. I absolutely love dannccce. Orientation only lasted until like 11 okay -.-, and the tentative time was 1 loorrzx. But nevermind, dancers had bonding time.


Well we went to school at 7, met Nicole, and the needlework room was locked. so we hung out in the canteen til the seniors came. We practiced our blocking for a lil bit.

Then after we were settled down, we were briefed my Joce. And we stuck the pins in our hair and practiced the dance cheers for awhile.

xD
After that we proceeded to the hall, and waited for out turn to perform. Yeah we screwed up a lil, but basically because we weren't getting any high vibes from the audience. The CCA groups cheered each other on la, and the audience was like ---

Mmm yeah. Nat cried la omg! Small thing only, dearest! Chiillllazzzx. yep. K. So we went around advertising. SRSLY SUPER DUPER ENTHU. I think it would have been better if the Sec 1s were more ALIVE!

Yeah, this year's CCA orientation was so dead please. Last year's was the bomb! The dancers all did the surrounding thing and went siren everywhere! :O WHOOPWHOOP! Yeah. But this year, everyone was just congregating at the outdoor stage. Because the netballers were taking up the court.

We were helping each others' business. the trackers (Felecia lie) was kinda pissed at the juniors. =/ We went around doing cheers and stuff. Super bushed. heh. LOUDLOUD. Sharlyn signed up! (: ee! (: we got 120 sign ups la, and only 20 can make it okay...

So sad, should really up those numbers, see how many people love dance? Yeah. then we had smoothie orders, like 30 orders. So 10 of us,Illya, joanne, Rachel Yong, Jia, Cheryl, Kaela, Nat,Daphne, and me went to help. (:


Then when we went back, everyone was just stoning, because all the sec ones went home. -.- Yeah! it was supposed to end at 1! Yep so we had ALOT of time to camwhore. I got loads of pictures (: Yeeahh.


After we camwhore ALOT, we went as a whole troop of dancers, to the EC Macs. Where we met the trackers. And Zaki. At macs. Then everyone was like Joce, your hotstuff! HAHA. Chels spotted him firrrst. Dang funny.

Twisteerrr fries babbyy. Whoop. Then we went to the NL to borrow books. -.- Haiyee. then we went home. Muahaha. We had like some giant dance outing la. So cool know.


Eh david aahh. Who made you boss ah can boss me around. HAHA. K la, cluster shirt design for you la ok. Aiyee. plus oneone tshirt design. ):

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARIA MENDOZA!!


Y Your's Truly6:38 PM
Friday, January 16, 2009
The Steeple

haha. got the yearbook today. Kind of funny. the photo in there makes me look like a maid! HAHA. My single ponytail period. :D

I love IJ.


Y Your's Truly9:58 PM
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Vantage and Voltage : The new Age

blee!! I GOT INTO DANCEWORKS I CAN'T BELIEVE IT I'M SO HAPPY.

We were darn nervous, alumini came back to judge us dancing. Jia did choreo, and we cried. As in before the audition. Because we didn't get into SYF, and if we don't make danceworks we wouldn't have anymore time with the seniors.

So they were comforting us like mad. And afterward, we were wondering if they thought that we were purposely trying to get sympathy.

We weren't! We were very very nervous.

I got a callback, and i smiled, ACTING confident, which was actually what they wanted. (:
Thanks guys.

VANTAGE AND VOLTAGE BABY!

Highest point!


Care-Lair-Fair.

My eyes they look unto you always


Y Your's Truly9:54 PM
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Lost for words, with all to say

Joyee's so randommm!
"Is that what a dinosaur would do?"

I'm so secure, You're here with me
You stay the same, Your love remains here in my heart

So close I believe, You're holding me now
In Your Hands I belong, You'll never let me go
So close I believe You're holding me now
In Your Hands I belong, You'll never let me go

You gave your life
In Your endless love
You set me free
And showed the way
Now I am found

All along, You were beside me
Even when I couldnt tell

Through the years, You showed me more of You, more of You

That awesome worship song that Kaela and I have been hunting for since our Primary 3 school
days, during the founder's day combined mass. Aaaww. It became REVIVED.
awessommme.

EE ): I lost my sermon notes. The one on Treasures in Heaven. I NEED IT FOR DEVOTION! They were my best notes yet. ))):
I totally don't have time to post man.
I love cable
no time to watch either.

Must not succumb to temptation.



Y Your's Truly9:48 PM
Monday, January 12, 2009
Above all, I live for Your Glory


K, here to rant about my day (:

There was stupid rat in the kitchen in the morning. As black as hell okay. Disgusting okay! I'm so jittery now! its just picturing the rat pouncing out from the shadows, scattering, biting, infecting.
Augh.

My bed, the kitchen, my food, my bag, my store room, my shoes. Anyway, after FINALLY getting out of the house, eew it feels so dirty. Yep. So schooool.

Well, first, in the morning, we started off with CE, Character Education.

Ugh. Its the same old same old year after year. We write good things and bad things about ourself, and reflect on our targets, etc. I don't really mind doing that, but I don't like the sharing, and I don't like the boring lesson.

Same old, same old. In fact thinking up stuff makes me sad. yeah. But i wrote down my target as controlling my temper, really i need that. Yes, then Where will I get help? Church, family. What do I do when I feel like giving up? Read the Bible, and pray more.

No, i'm serious. Not for the sake of some perfect right answer. Really I'm willing. Oh and I DK why Alison is in Catholic CE, all the Christians are scattered everywhere! Aaaw, sarah said that jay was sweet! Apparently he was sick or something on some girl's birthday, and couldn't give her a present. So he recorded a video of himself playing Happy Birthday on the guitar, and posted on facebook.

-.-
Haha. I'm just reminiscing on what lao shi said about him to chriz, jane and i.
Darn funny.

Yes, then after CE we had chinese. Wow. Struggling for words to write something about the holidays. I can't translate church camp and all the super cool things that happened during the Hols. So i wrote it all in broken chinese. Like direct translation, its embarrassing!

Eee. YAY! there's drama tomorrow. Yeah. Then we had PE. The sole in my shoe gave way, apparently, my the soles of my shoes split, because of Erin's awesomeness, and causes them to smile and I had to run like that for PE. and play basketball. But Mrs Nicks, God bless Mrs Nicks, she is the bomb and I love her, helped me to tape up my shoe (:

Yes. But we still lost our B-ball match, because Lynette(sticky),Rachel(Miss Looonglegs loong arms) and GinYin are too good just TOO GOOD. ))):

Gwen, Choo and i. Err. Not really a goood team la. HAHA. Blocked so easily, then one with phobia of basket balls, and one with a broken sole.

Recess was cool la. Lots of reminiscing. Sang a real loud birthday song to Min Yee. Yep. Then I was returning my plate, and didn't wanna help Chris, so in her lazy nature, she ran after me to try and dump the plate on me. And doing that, her egg yolk fell of the plate in front of Mr. Tan, our OM. HAHAH!

Lol please. So crummsee ah. whoo! then after that, we had science, Mrs Tan was on course, so the lab asst took over the SPONGEE experiment. CGK IS GREAT! (: Su Lynn didn't come today. Sooo, the class funds weren't in school, and we were so scared that the worksheets weren't either. But I found it. (: I'm so cool. But i think our no-locker-system is really stupid, and inconvenient.

Yeah. After school went for dance. Visited the old one one. I miss it so much. A sense of comfort, belonging, unity. Like when you walk into that room you can remember every single lesson being taught there, every sentence spoke, every experience shared, every laugh echoed, every tear shed. its all in that room.

Yeah we had DANCE. hip hop. I can still remember choreo 8) Yeah. CCA orientation on saturday. Dance practically everyday. The CCA orientation clippies are so cute la omg. yeah finished at about 6pm. Went home on the bus with my masking-taped shoe.
I made Dwight's day, then shattered his glass heart later on. HAHA.


happy birthday min yee, once again (;

Gosh. David Ong got B3 for HCL in ACSI okay. WTH!


Lord, you take my breath away, you are HOLY.


Y Your's Truly9:01 PM
Friday, January 09, 2009
In you, There's freedom.











Y Your's Truly5:53 PM
Thursday, January 08, 2009
Pin Ern.

















Y Your's Truly5:45 PM
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
This Little Light of Mine

I am really astounded by how double minded people can be. One minute they're singing "Whom shall I fear?" And the next minute they'll be going, OH DIE. Omg howhowhow.

-.-

Just want to let the soon to be 12 year old boy, that you have alot more to learn about maturity. I can't believe you're going after girls during PSLE year. Gah. Please don't talk like you know me.



Mmm. That is a giant pile of homework that i have. )):
I can't wait for Sunday.
x)

Yeppz.

See you.

Sorry for the short post. I'm exhausted, and am undergoing a mental block.

*Relink Jie, Diyanah, Tiff, Val and Nicole.

Natalie's my hero, and she's a genius that spells it as "genious"


Y Your's Truly4:45 PM
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Living for your name

Jesus I'll stand
In every circumstance
I'll lift up Your name
To save this generation

Sometimes it's hard
To know exactly what to say
But I will stand up
Cause You are with me all the way

I'm gonna let it show
Let the whole world know
What You've done in me
Cause I am not ashamed

I will be a light
In the darkest night
Everyone will see
Cause I am not ashamed

NO! I am not ashamed
NO! I am not ashamed

I am not ashamed
Of the Gospel of Your name
I am not ashamed




I'm so glad with my testimony. I TOUCHED DWIGHT'S HEART. And made him tear.
Sorry Glenn! Haha I stayed up til 1 last night, and typed 2167 words, 32 paragraphs, 5 pages.
Omg ok.


THIS SONG JUST TOTALLY SPOKE TO ME IN THE MORNING. I love you God.
Thanks for the revelation. Oh Dear God, I'm hungry for you, oh Provider.

You search me and you know me. All my thoughts lie open to your gaze.
Sovereign, you are Sovereign.

You are Love
You are grace.

I run longingly to you with wide open arms.

Y Your's Truly8:52 PM
Monday, January 05, 2009





Y Your's Truly9:15 PM
Sunday, January 04, 2009


Wow. hectic much. Ah. tomorrow i've got EP, and apparently a run in the morning, Dance PT. Don't even know what my timetable's like. eek. then tuesday i've got AEP.

Its amazing how 2008 can just FLY past, and then this new year's clock just seems to be ticking 71263786172366173261783 times slower.

Ah well. but can't complain. I'm satisfied.


5/1/09
Quote of the Day
VALLLL!
"Who does hilary duff act as?"
"Wait, Miley Cyrus is Hilary Duff right?"
"SEE I TOLD YOU, LIZZIE MCGUIRE IS A REAL PERSON"

HAHAH OMG VALLLL!


Larry King Live and BBC. MUM SAID WE CAN GET CABLE.
but i have to pick between Disney and nickelodeon.

Aah. Anyway, looking at my schedule I don't think i have the time.

Mmmm.


I want to Linger a little longer.
(With YOU)

Rar.
Then I have to write a testimony.

I love Church.
Yipee.


Oh my MUM made me go watch Australia with her. ITS 3 HOURS LONG OK. Went to Great world.

The show's about CATTLE.
I think Aboriginals are crazy cute.


Y Your's Truly8:43 PM
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Watchnight

Greetings.


So watchnight was pretty cool! I went to church about 10. met Jamie, and she brought Bernice, her friend. yep, Then vicki came, and she was like DID YOU SEE ANY OF MY CELL MEMBERS :(

Saw Junyi at the vending machine, and i'm like HI JUNYI. and he does not recognise me and looks at me veryvery sheepishly. Ha.Ha.Ha.

Anyway, justin joined us, because reuben isn't talking to him(AAWWW WHY LIDDAT). Rachel came, and Lih Yu. Vicki, Lih Yu and Bernice are like hardcore anime fans, and Jamie and I were like. Ayeeeee.


Her dress so cute. :D HAHA. Our cell was embarassingly small okay. Ee. then we went up to the 4th floor of the sanctuary. I like the 4th floor, you can see everything. I was feeling very extremely warm. Worship started. Awesome worship, worship team! (: Really.

Clement, Tricia, Russell, Jeremy, Elizabeth, Glenn, Timothy, Nigel and the pianist.

Justin was bugging me throughout the whole service! During worship, while everyone was singing in praise and with hands lifted high, he was like, Jie, are the drummer(Glenn) and Bass(Timothy) brothers? They look alike.

-.-

OMG LA. then during service he kept leaning on me and i kept having to nudge him because you know he isn't the lightest feather on earth. Yep. Then the countdown was cool! :D After countdown, we had Holy Communion, which was open table, first time doing that.

We congregated around the stage, and we had a while to wait since we were on the top floor.
So everybody around us was buzzing and talking, and jamie and i were kind of annoyed because we were trying to prepare ourselves for communion.

And when asking for forgiveness, I apologised to Justin, and he was like, what's going on, and i was like, fine nevermind. It was really big hearted for Pastor Koh to ask for forgiveness from the congregation (: Yep, we had to wait kind of long to get the elements.

We finally got down, and it was a big joy singing praise, and confessing. Wished lots of people Blessed New Year. On the way back, saw Benedict Tay. Like OMG! What's he doing here, since when was he in this church. Then near the end, I saw Cal, then I was like CAL CAL CAL! HAPPY NEW YEAR.

Then i shook his hand, then he was like, Ehhhh got miss me anot, i miss you guys so much la, then he hugged me damn tight, omg Cal, couldn't breathe okay, your water polo arms are very hard. HAHA. I can't wait for post camp outing.


Upstairs, wished KaiFeng. (: The Sec 3 cluster was upstairs, plus Becca!(: Grace was with her mission trip people. Yep. David was up there too. Yep, service ended about 1, then we had pictures taken (: Yay. The first photo of 09!(: It was filled with Charlton and Bosty(whatshisrealname) because the jumped up from behind. LOL!

Took pics with Jamie, Mx, Rach, Grace, Abigail, Charlene and Co, Dwight, Sam, Ryan, Nicole Mao and Tricia. IDC i wan't some more. I didn't get to take with any Bonjourians except for Tricia!

Oh yeah, then I when I was looking for Nicole mao, I bumped into Pastor Reuben,

"Happy New Year pastor!"
"Happy New year!"
"Hey I saw your facebook photos!"
"Oh No, that's embarassing! I've really gotta stop doing that. So how's life after camp?"
"I've been sad... and I've been doing devotion everyday!"
"Wow,nicely done! Hey what school are you in?"
"CHIJ TP!"
"Oh Oh, i thought you were one of those PL girls"
"Nononono"
"Haha, okay, see you on Sunday then"
"Bye Happy New Year!"


Yep. Then I wished LiLing and Cheryl and then went home. Shawn came to church with us, so that's good. We chilled out a lil at home first, then sent him home. And reached home at 3. Woooow. So bushed. Yep. K anyway. Photos will be up another time.

My computer's busted again okay! No photoshop :(



Y Your's Truly1:20 PM

MissSunshine ;
MISS {COWABUNGA}!
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Singing without tongues, Screaming without lungs

Those little details ;
Heart-felt
#1.God
#2.Good Books
#3.Decent Music
#4.Photoshop
#5.You of course,friend.

Someday in the clouds ;
Craves
A closer relationship with God
Good relationship ties
An ambition in life
Being an all-rounder
To finish reading the Bible

Wise Words;
2 Corinthians 4:18
"So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."

Under my Umbrella ;
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Alexandra
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Amanda Low
Ambra
Angelene
Annabel
Ashley Yow
Atiqah

Brittany

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Carolyn's LJ
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Cezanne
Chanapa
Charlotte
Ché
Chelsey
Cherryl
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Clara Tee
Clement
Colin
Crystal

Danielle
David Lee
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Deborah
Desiree
Diyanah
Dorothy
Dwight

Elizabeth Ang
Elizabeth Lee
Elwin
Erin
Esther
Estelle's LJ
Estelle Goh
Ethel
Evin

Facebook
Faith
Fang Ying
Felecia
Fries

Gerald
Geraldine
Georgia
Gin Yin
Glenn
Gowri
Grace
Gwen Seah
Gwendolyn Tan

Hui Ying
IJ Dance Ensemble
Isabel Lam

Jamie
Jay
Jessica
(C)JingWei
Jing Wei
Jocelyn
Joel Lee
Junyi
Justin Kek
Justina

Kaela
Kimberly Chew
Kimberly Lee
Kimberley
Kimverlyn
Laura
Lesley
Lisa

Maria Mendoza
Megan Foo
Meldee
Melissa
Melody
Michelle Lim
Michelle Tan
Mihoko
Miyuki
Mr. Razali
Ms. Teo

Nadia
Naomi K
Natalie Seah
Nicole Ann
Nicole Kee
Nicole Lim
Nicollette Yap
OneOne 08
Rhapsodies-FTS
Rachel Loke
Rachel Yap
Rebecca
Renee
Ru Hui
Ryan

Sacha
Sam Wong
Sarah Ng
Sarah Quek
See Teng
Sherie
Sharlyn
Shermin
Sherwynn
Sheryl Leong
Shi-Ning

Tessa
Theresa
Tiffanie Tan
Tiffany Tan
Toots♥
Tricia
Trinisha
TWO ONE 09!

Valerie Leong
Valerie Lim
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