cAITLIN;♡

The swimming coach

2011-06-12T23:40:00.002+08:00

Rippled, defined lines,

they were the tyrant of my childhood.

I could just picture myself clinging to

my mother's legs,

crying out every saturday,

week after week,

just because I didn't want that 2 hour lesson with you.

You pushed me, pushed me hard.

You made me compete,

tested my limits,

humiliated and disciplined me.

And for years I entered that pool with dread.

Then I got stronger, faster and leaner.

You created those tan lines,

those tones.

And now you've crumpled into nothing,

just as my physical finesse.

Chlorine.

2011-05-30T23:11:00.002+08:00

Everytime,

just simply everytime I try to forget you.

You go do something.

The simplest thing,

that's enough for me to make my heart skip a beat.

Its silly, its stupid,

but i'm young and reckless,

that's my excuse.

2011-01-31T12:38:00.000+08:00

One week can change you.

2011-01-19T22:02:00.001+08:00

Be good at what you're good at. Don't try to be anything you're not. So know what you're good at, and what you're NOT good at. Eat pancakes.

Sweeeet.

2011-01-06T22:42:00.002+08:00

When you tell me to look out at the sky

just cause the stars are showing.

When you ask me if its too late to

ask about my day.

2011-01-02T22:46:00.003+08:00

Just like that, all those three years,

of laughs, of prayer, or worship, of sharing,

we said goodbye to it all,

the minute we walked out those doors,

into new chapters of our lives.

We've had a good run.

The bench with food, with ants,

sometimes dirt, an occasional art piece,

a lot of scares,

a lot of stares,

waves,

the stair case that led upstairs.

It's gone, maybe some day we'll reunited with the bench under the stairs.

I love you, cell, though we may be miles apart,

you'll still forever be in my heart.

2010-12-31T00:25:00.000+08:00

Luke says

smile, foo.

don't let things get you down.

cheer up.

and know that you're human.

you're not limitless.

so...

you can take a break when you need it.

don't…feel like you owe people anything!

This guy gives the best advice.

2010-11-11T17:36:00.001+08:00

2010-10-25T20:21:00.001+08:00

I am touched you're touched.

I'm touched you think I make a difference.

I'm touched you think I matter.

I'm touched.

2010-10-25T20:17:00.001+08:00

Its amazing,

How God is just so moving.

When he is at work, there is not stopping Him.

He doesn't hold back

2010-07-11T18:53:00.001+08:00

2010-07-09T21:54:00.000+08:00

Hello Em really high now.

I've been very flattered lately.

IloveJaneLeow.

IloveShimona.

Ilovengawai-NORWAY

The Epic Story

2010-06-29T21:52:00.002+08:00

I was on pledge duty yesterday, and today was supposed to be Pet's turn, but that genius was late for school. So thinking that the rain would do me a favour and spare us from pledge duty. THEN pet called, and she asked me to go check if we had to read announcements cuz she'll be late.

I left my class, and on the way downstairs, the PA announced to go to the hall for assembly. Seeing as Pet was gonna be late, I had to go make up for her. So I ran to the hall, finding that the announcement book wasn't there, ran down to the general office to go get it, and wound up getting asked what I was looking for.

The office staff said that Mrs Chu took it, and so I ran back up to the hall, and then Mrs Wong was tryna get a mic and discipline the girls. But Mrs Chu was totally nowhere to be found, and then finally I saw her at the back of the hall, correcting grammatical errors, so I ran up to her to get it. And had to run back to the front and go panting into the mic.

GRR!

AEP IS COOL.

yay.

Photog is visual candy every lesson, and no drawing WHOO i'm so glad i chose it.

BYE! MR BEAN O:

2010-06-10T21:57:00.004+08:00

OMY I THINK THIS IS THE PARENT TRAP ONE

The city's restless

It's all around me
People in motion
And sick of all the same routines
And they need to go
They need to get away tonight (tonight)

London, Paris
Maybe Tokyo
There's something going on
Anywhere I go tonight
Tonight, yeah tonight

Only when I'm ready of course.

2010-06-09T18:16:00.003+08:00

You should be able to make me feel so secure that my jealousy is accounted for.

And I won't get bored of you.

And of course I want you to be my best friend first.

I just haven't met you yet.

Today was cool. I went for flag day and this little girl made my day. Despite all those dao people, and mean strangers that stare you up and down. I went to Orchard with Caitlin Choo to sell flags for IJ homes, and we got blown off at least 500 times. But we got to Wheelock where our tins filled up within 10 minutes. (Y)

There are just a FEW types of people.

1) Tourists who can't speak English, they may be generous or may not know what you're talking about.

2) The mums with small kids, they nearly always give coins to the children and let them put it in the tin and take the stickers. The cutest and sweetest and most generous kind <3

3) The ang mohs that smile all the time

4) The ones that don't.

5) The teens that look at you then look away.

6) The unexpected strangers that walk up and donate without saying a word.

7) The ones that raise their hand or deliberately avoid you.

8) The ones that ask what's it for.

HAHAH

I love people watching.

~~Anyway~~, NEway(hahahaha), we were @ wheelock and I asked this woman to donate, and she was holding the hand of a small girl in pink. Bangs, big eyes, reminded me of my younger self. 'Excuse me, would you like to donate?' The woman smiled and gave the girl a coin, I bent down and brought the tin to her level. She took a sticker without putting in the coin.

'You have to put in the coin first!', the woman said. She stuck the sticker on the tin, and then put the coin in. Then she took another sticker. I told her she could have another one if she wanted. 'One's more than enough Caitlin!', 'Sorry what was her name?!' 'Caitlin!'

REALLY? CAITLIN? I'm Caitlin too!

She gave me a high five.

I pointed @ Choo, and she's Caitlin too

CLAPS FOR THREE CAITLINS IN ORCHARD ROAD.

made my daaaay!

2010-05-30T17:43:00.003+08:00

I wanna walk down the streets of New York,
in the big apple, clad in cigraette jeans, avis,
and starbucks in hand.

I'll feel like a million bucks.

Like in the movies.
:)

I wanna plunge into a field of long grass
in a white dress,
and make a daisy chain and put it in my hair.
Then i want to stay there to lie and watch the stars

Shine like Gold

2010-05-30T17:19:00.002+08:00

You make me dance like a fool.

I lubbz that song (Y)
:D

Sorry i have been MIA just haven't been in the mood.
In many ways i miss blogging
And i'm sad about the parts of my life that have been forgotten due to my lack of recording.
haha, i blog not because of anything but just cuz its easier than writing in a diary.
Hahaha and plus, blogskins and pictures, duh beats a diary any old day.
I've tried once before and failed.

heh.
So yep my blog isn't even for your entertainment, but mine.
So that when i'm old and have rotten memory, I can sit back and read these posts
and remember my youth.
HAHAAH.

(I'm serious)

A light that never goes out

2010-05-07T20:57:00.002+08:00

IDKKKK!
Blogger seems to =/ now.
LJ has moods, music, and is awesome for large picz.
at the same time, tumblr seems so ON! I mean everyone who owns tumblr
is like DARN artsy fartsy.

But yet, blogger seems more personal and open. yep but its for people who rant and rant, which i tend to do. HAHAHA.
I like to remember the EXACT moment things happen, as it is, I can't remember what on earth what was going on with me when i look through my archives.

Gosh my writing is becoming whiny, unoriginal and... unappealing. geezz ))):
Lack of inspiration mmm.

My brain has been cut in two due to physics and math examz tday.

FUNNY.

Mum: I think we should whitewash the house
Me : Re do the door! Its nice and vintage.
Mum: Yeah but I don't know how to redo it.
Me: YOU SEE LA THAT STUPID JUSTIN BREAK AND CRACK THE DOOR BY KICKING FOOTBALLS.
Justin : HELLO, you break how many things alreadyy!?
Me: WHAT'D I BREAKK!
Justin: my heart! ):

To die for

2010-04-19T21:36:00.003+08:00

Irony irony.

Thank you iTunes for shuffling my songs and in the process helping me rediscover and relove the songs I forgot about.

IRONNNYYY.

WHAT'S 8 x 7. uh. 5?
(:

Sorry I'm losing your interest. HAHA. too bad.
SO many things i wna do ):

I seem to be playing second fiddle to everyone

Adam Young is too cute.

Christie yeo you my wonderwall :) Happy Birthday darling
Arielle Teo, most versatile and bubbly senior, love you.
Val Lim, my friend's awesome older sister

Happy Birthday!

(just need you to back off, one moment)

Please tell me you'll stay

2010-04-16T21:53:00.001+08:00

I'll stand up with you forever.
:)

2010-04-09T23:56:00.002+08:00

You spoilt me real good, and now i have higher expectations.
sigh.

I miss hong kong, st paulians and the nice lasalle students we met yesterday.
You just can't find it here!
The socialite quality.

LOVEYEW COUNCILLORS.

CHRIS, GWEN, NAOMI, NGA WAI, ANDREA, CLARICE
:D

so drama mama.
geezzzz.

Heart on sleeve and good to go.

I don't have a best friend

2010-03-20T23:10:00.003+08:00

So please, please, please, let me get what I want this time.

3 things i wanna say to 3 people

(1)I know you never dreamed of doing it alone.
I'm sorry, but just don't let go of us,
and don't let go of yourself.
I know I probably won't know how you feel til I'm in it for myself.
I'm sorry I'm your teenager, but you make me proud.

Your friends change, but your family doesnt.
(don't take it out on me)

(2) I don't know if you know just how much I care for you.
I'd like to see that in return sometime.
I haven't been close to you since 6 years ago,
you made me feel special.
I don't know why that feeling still holds now, despite our differences the distance between us.
The awkward silences are there just because there is so much i am not telling you.
I am not telling you because there is just too much to say
I know my place, it is not in the highest rankings.
I want to stick up for you, but in that process I'm the victim of a double edged sword.

(3) You have always been my best friend, though I may not have been yours.
I know we've grown apart, but time cannot account for what we've had for so long.
Despite it being little childish dreams and despite our harsh realities and narrow paths ahead of us, you are still my best friend. It is not your ability in consoling me, you have a silence for it.
i can't even explain it, but I think other people have found this quality in you as well, and hence, they turn to you, hence they tell you their worries, hence...
I haven't really talked to you real good, i just don't know where to start.
I still don't expect to be your best friend.
We don't have to put labels on boxes.
(Please treat yourself better, you deserve so much)

(You're my number three, I was yours, less than threee)

Maybe I'll try defying gravity

2010-03-19T22:02:00.003+08:00

When shouting out is all you know.Squealz.

MARK SALLING.
Glee glee Gleeee
e.

(melts @ Sweet Caroline solo)

Hot tamali.

2010-03-19T21:57:00.002+08:00

You are so beautiful to me, I spent a lifetime looking into your face.

Caitlin Foo:

Approach with caution.
Not shock absorbent
Fool proof
Defies gravity.

I used to be scared of phones that vibrated.
I mean.
Vibration in general, freaked me out.
HAHA!.

I am having a bad hair day.
Scratch that.
Bad hair.

Put the 'I' in Partcipate!

2010-03-16T21:34:00.003+08:00

Sorry I'm not fun anymore.

Used to be

2010-03-16T21:34:00.002+08:00

Before art came along.
Before council came along.
Things that a girl just has to do.

Hey soul sister

2010-03-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

I wish I was happier.
I wish I was less grumpy.
I wish I was more humble.
I wish my hair wasn't screwed up.

2010-03-07T20:34:00.001+08:00

I lubbit. I wanna make it big like this.
David Choi + Kinna Granis. (L)
Kollaboration!

I am loving acoustics and acapellas.

He calls me friend

2010-03-07T20:29:00.002+08:00

If I have to write
When balanced, the sum of clockwise moments = sum of anti clockwise moments one more time, i'm going to implode.

:)

haha physics!

I have inspiration to choreograph a dance to You make my dreams come true, and For you I will.
Maybe it helps that I love those songs truly madly deeply.
When oh when will i get the chance to express myself and choreograph.
I've just got to get over the fear of leading my peers and caring what they think.
But i don't think i'll be able to do it here.

(I want to go to London so bad)

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I do not die.
-Mary Elizabeth Frye

My, you are remarkably beautifully incredible.

2010-02-20T23:21:00.002+08:00

Dry run was so failed today! ):
But I had fun with councillors anw.
I think I feel the most at home with them than anyone.
HAHA ANDREA IS FUNNY.

And we are so going to Balestier from now on! Its so empty(: Me like.
Valentine's day was retarded! Quite anti climax, and tskk duh! to some extent.
It was funny though.

Taylor and Taylor were dumb.
Walk it out babe! You're still hot!
HAHAHAH!
Swift cannot dance.
HAR.

Purple nail polish.
You know me!(:

2010-02-19T22:07:00.001+08:00

Obviously, everyone else's Physics test is more important than I.

I felt terrible and was on the brink of tears more than once today.

I don't know how many times I've used this song

2010-02-18T21:58:00.002+08:00

Wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone

And it all seems so hopeless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land

And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles spend their time collapsing

Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough

It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago

And I feel stuck watching history repeating
Yeah who am I just a kid who knows he's needy

Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough

Thank you Jars of Clay, for letting me know other people go through what I'm going through
Thank you for reminding me of this higher being we put all our faith in,
Thank you that you've shown me just how personal He is.

These were my emotions yesterday, but I just posted today because of a particular line. Mm.
The fact that I'm in a conflict and not at ease with the world, but have an inner peace despite all this turmoil. I am alive and kicking.

My thoughts EXACTLY.

B-I-M-B-O

2010-02-16T17:32:00.002+08:00

and Bimbo was her name-o.

I am scretly falling apart without knowing why.

Actually I do, its everything accumalative, feelings and emotions that I just can't express.

But it is building up and getting harder to rid.

I'm going to spare you readers of cliche whiny teenager "Nobody understands me" stuff, but it is in existence.

2010-02-11T22:30:00.001+08:00

I let the bed bugs bite.

Don't let em get you. It sucks big time ):

Tralala.

What a bleaghrhghagxzxz day.

2010-02-01T21:52:00.002+08:00

TWITCHINGTON IS DANG HOT!

Love the pair! (:

Mia Michael's contemp piece.
Dreaming with a broken heart (U)
Super aaw!(some)

Twitch bby you are fineee

(faints)

Best Hip hop piece of the season.
Choreo by nappytabs! (They're too darn kewt together)
I love saying Chelsie Hightower

This was initially just supposed to say Twitch Boss is mine.
But i found all these cool photos on flickr which captures the action and passion and intimacy and flavour and ferocity.
O:

Raaahz. So i just had to put them up.

(eh its different guys)
Katee is seriously technical, and HAIL WILL! (R)

This was so raw and unique and weird and dark.
LOVE IT!

KHERINGTON + TWITCH = TWITCHINGTON!
HOTTEST COUPLE!

I thought it was one of the best dances of the season, really symbolic and everything
Art in another form. The intro (above) was super simplistic, but it was very down to earth
and intense at the same time, (check out Katee's face!)

Hallelujah (for) Mia Michaels!
The Top 4 perform @ the finale to Hallelujah by the Vitamin String quartet.
Victory! (L)

Coolest way to walk, no other way to travel man!
Season 4's most technical dancers Katee + Will!

OOOH! NappyTabs
(As in Tabitha & Napeleon Gumo Hip hop choreographers) have flickr!

Thank you SYTYCD, for making life a lil better.
They're currently on season 6! But I haven't seen Season 5 yet):

2010-01-30T18:31:00.004+08:00

I just had a pleasant dream during my hour long nap, but woke up when it was at its peak.

Something about a roller coaster water theme park in the beginning. weird. Dunno what it was for.

But then it got switched to this revival of my spirituality. When this girl, I think around 18-20, invited me to her church, and she behaved like she was my friend since forever, her name and all wasn't even familiar. Started with L or something. But anyway, she was darn beautiful.

She led me to her church, which I had a feeling was mine, but it wasn't. We had to walk down these eerie flight of steps, the ones like in those dingy carparks. Except the walls were pink, yellow and orange. We passed a few alleys, the cool vintage ones with rustic gates and everything, I felt like i was in the caribbean or something.

Then each door we passed, I asked, is this your church? And she said no, no, no, no. Then we finally got to this white wooden gate, with an arch of flowers overhead. There was a wooden balcony with glass walls, and there were darling stone steps all the way to the top. She turned to me and she said, this is it.

I was like, did you grow up a Christian, and she said to me dead serious: Is my mum dead yet?

Which I figure was some sarcarstic answer for no. Then she opened the gate and we walked in, we were supposed to be doing Bible study or something. But then I woke up!

But after that, I felt somewhat spiritually rejuvinated, and I felt God secretly telling me to do something. Something to do with last week's sermon. Bringing someone to Him before its too late.

I gotta feeling I know who it is.

I like my dreams.

Since childhood I had this dream where I could fly like the children in Peter Pan, and when I woke up I was so upset because I was such an expert. It took awhile for me to realise that its physically impossible. ):

It felt really real in the dream though, I learnt that you changed your direction by turning your body. It felt so cool to be in control and in power. Plus the adrenaline of London buildings rushing by you at break neck speed, my. Who would wanna wake up.

2010-01-28T21:02:00.000+08:00

I'll cross that bridge when it comes.

Gotta cross the little ones in my way first.

I just hope you'll see me through.

I am a friend of God

2010-01-24T22:35:00.002+08:00

You're the God of this City,
You're the King of these people,
You're the Lord of the nations,
You are.

You're the light in this darkness,
You're the hope the hopeless,
You're the peace to the restless,
You are.

There is no one like our God,
Greater things have yet to come,
Greater things are still to be done in this city.
Yeah.

2010-01-19T23:11:00.002+08:00

I CANNOT SLEEP WELL KNOWING THAT I HAVE UNDONE HW

Nerd move or what, Caitlin.

*pats self on back*

UH.

Man. this is NUTS. To encourage and reassure myself that AEP is worth continuing, I have come up with a list of all the pros of AEP.
But i'm too braindead to put that up now.

Shh.

2010-01-15T22:19:00.000+08:00

If I go silent for a day, and don't say a word,

Tell me if I'll finally be heard.

2010-01-15T22:12:00.003+08:00

I wonder how people master the art of making you feel like absolute crap.

You mightn't realise it but i do.

My mum told me I'm sensitive.

ha.

Extremely. You have no idea.

I seem to have nothing to say to you anymore.

Queer, i have so much to tell you, but I can't get it out.

Do you know what its like having to supress your views? Especially for someone like me?

Strange.

Two years and I still haven't even started settling in to dance.

After the seniors zao, it feels like this empty hole.

I have never felt so helpless.

Today, I spoke out loud, and didn't get a response. More than once.

What is it with me?

Or what is it with people?

I don't feel... near anyone/thing at all.

So sick and tired of being sick and tired

2010-01-13T21:27:00.003+08:00

Wrap my arms around your name.
Feel your breath against my pain.
As I breathe out, the past is gone.
Empty smile, make it hard.
Who I was falls apart
when you're here inside of me.
Feel til you're numb, depth perception becoming the new deaf and dumb.

I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind
in your mind
Changing myself just to stand alone in your eyes
in your eyes
Pull me in. Take me out. Make me over.

Read the wave. Ride your fears
in this ocean of years
we've been here swimming on.
Take me deep til I find
every corner of your mind
we've been here swimming on.
Touch til you taste all the time we are wasting alone waiting here...

I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind
in your mind
Changing myself just to stand alone in your eyes
in your eyes
Pull me in. Take me out. Make me over and shout me out loud.
Shout me out loud.

I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind
in your mind
Changing myself just to stand alone in your eyes
in your eyes
I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind
in your mind
Pull me in. Take me out. Make me over

Friends who talk things out

Friends who have things in common

Friends who know me in side out

Friends who get me.

Friends who know what's on my mind.

I need friends

2010-01-13T21:15:00.001+08:00

Today was half half.

I shan't say too much, except that today I was surprised, disappointed, and left out.

Amusing.

2010-01-11T19:12:00.002+08:00

I love my cluster camp commm! We were fun stuff.

Ooh and yesterday I went to Nat Chin's parteh, it was relaxing/highhhh!
We were so gay, I can't belieeveit.

And after a such a hectic week, I can't believe I actually got through it.
Thanks Daddy.
:)

Seriously, I was just praying every single night for Jehovah Shalom,
and I only realised the magnitude of God's grace to me this week, when Val pointed it out to me.
Amazingly though, I realise that put the complaining aside, and everyone's much happier.
O.O

We had some crazy toot bonding @ Springbloom, and were being seriously tralalala, and everytime there was an awkward silence, Mr Awkward Turtle helped us out!

:)

Just a touch of your grace.

2010-01-07T20:37:00.001+08:00

We all come together.

madness.

I think what I miss most are the little things.
The knowledge that someone will always be up there in class,
the smile that spreads across your face when the girl behind you harmonises the hymn for the day.
The little class jokes.
The flurry to complete someone's homework.
The groans that reverberate from the walls.

2/1.
I miss the little imperfections that make you just perfect.

2010-01-01T15:23:00.004+08:00

Bye 2009!

And Happy Birthday Tricia Chee! :D

Watchnight was ORHSUMZX! worship was really good, sermon was v relevant.

Ooh and dinner with my cell at home was bliss.

Roast beef ooohzmm yumyum.

haha, ooohh.

I forgot what i was gonna say

Oh yeah.

lets shoo in the first decade of the second millenium.

I did not know how to spell millenium.

Hmm.

Sorry, brain currently being fried with MLIA.

2010-01-01T15:23:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year guys. I am still living in 2009, you guys go on without me.

2009-12-29T22:15:00.001+08:00

My mum is going to kill me when she sees all the apps i put in her phone.

2009-12-25T16:36:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas fellows (:

Love you guys. Just remember the importance of this day!
:D

I'm not really in the Christmas mood, but its festive enough.
Haven't seen the Orchard road lights yetz. O:

2009-12-22T22:43:00.002+08:00

I, the complete retard managed to lose two things on this trip.

First, watermelon earrings. After swearing I'd never lose anything else after lost (the next thing I'm going to tell you). Left it at the B&B. I'm just more mad about not being able to find identical ones to replace them(I have this OCD about replacing everything I lose). Mailing them over is no point, because the postage is prolly more expensive than the earrings. What, $5 Malaysian dollahz?

Second. The 512MB(Okay its very small) memory card of mine, that I used to take the cooliest photos of the trip with. I slipped it into the camera pouch because it was full, and didn't take it out the next day, so when we returned the bikes, it fell out because it was around my neck.

Grr.

I actually cried. But my wonderful dad had the idea to call the Villa reception, and amazing! They found it. Some very nice woman found it, went home and looked at the pictures, and somehow managed to identify it as Whaler's cove. Zomgeez, Aussies so nice. If this were in SG, it'd be gone in no time. Anyway, they're mailing it over (: Nice people, really.

Second memory card I lost alrrr. The other time it was in the bus ): 2GB somemore.
Wah.

2009-12-21T20:35:00.001+08:00

He-yyy! I am back from Perth, been super MIA. Sorrray.
I don't have much to say, doesn't seem like anyone missed me.
Hmm.

I just can't catch a break.
I didn't know this is what I signed up for.
I mean, i just don't see how this is fair, some people do all the work and some people just do none.

Companion

2009-12-06T21:50:00.003+08:00

You're someone I'd like to know more
Just the one I wouldn't mind painting the town for
The very same one I could just stay and talk with
Somehow you seem to play the right part.

(Nostalgia is my best friend)

This feels good.

2009-12-06T21:04:00.002+08:00

I think I can make my own nail salon.
Seriously cool.

WHOO TNG!
www.plmcthenextgeneration.wordpress.com

:)

I really want an SLR ):

Omg-this-girl-is-fourteen-she-is-sew-hot.

FRECKLES (:

I want my backyard like thees.

2009-12-03T20:25:00.002+08:00

dm dm dmdddmdmdm dmmmm.

The only way i can describe the nice tune that Justin made up on the guitar.

I went for CIP today! (: fun fun.
Made a friend. She's weird like everybody, and she reminds me of Marilyn, Erin and Melissa Foo.

Yessss. I'mma watch Cirque De Soliel on ice tmr! (: WHOO! And I'm going to marina barrage. Awesome possum.
BRING YOUR LOMO, HOMO!

We are Golden

2009-12-01T22:43:00.011+08:00

Hey guys. Major photo spam!

Wesley looks like a lil gosling, and my hair looks like the nest.

JOLLY SHANDY EH! zomg Johnnie and Samuel

are just too cute for words. Look at them!

SO SCHWEEEET! Where got boys so nice to each other one!

Girls for that matter, so jealous.

Sort of ruined this shot. HAHAHA. Beanka so stylo!

Sweet potato farmers! (:

Nom nom nom!

Cute ttum! Okay I'm going to thesaurus 'cute':

Eh since when does cute = suave/sexy/hot?

I'm going to choose ambrosial, because I don't know what it means.

(ambrosial, appealing, attractive, captivating, charming, cute, darling, dear, delectable,delicious, delightful, dishy, dreamy*, fetching,heavenly, hot*, luscious, pleasing, precious,sexy, suave)

Teeheehee. The equivalent of a neoprint machine in the Space museum.

There are just too many of these shots.

LOVE TH ST PAUL'S GANG.

We're just missing Teddy, Jonathan and John. Whom I didn't see at all.

IJ FTW!!!!

I LOVE RACHEL LI CHI LOK.

Johnnie, you da man! Seems like everyone else ran away.

3E is the ultimate bestest.

Sam was scared of this. She closed her eyes and didn't dare to let go.

I'm the only Singaporean who rode this k.

Cheezels.

Nice place to walk with your boyfriend.

Hey guys! This is my stalker, watch out for him.

RYAN LIU.

St Paul's was awesomesauce.

The class clowns.

Girl guide uniform!

CHALKBOARDS! :DDDDD

With Prof Tsang.

Platonic love strong as ever, even more than Bassanio and Antonio can!

): I won't see this anymore.

Victoria Peak blew me away!

Lam sha!

Chillin with my galsz.

HI SU LYNN!

We are the dreamers from the other side, we are the dancers who cannot be denied

Anyone heard of Downhere? OMG I'm in love with them

Just randomly typed lyrics for another song, and I got the song starspin instead.

And best of all, they're a Christian band, Gosh listening and obsessing over their songs now.

Their songs are so realistic! CANADIAN BAND! That's new.

Love it already.

Reading the starspin lyrics (above) I already fell in love with it, then I heard the melody.

JESUS!(:

Jeremiah was a good frog.

2009-11-30T22:30:00.004+08:00

Our second simulation, after lunch, was the simulation of alienation.
We were separated into the Alpha and Beta clan.

We were supposed to trade and everything, then migrate over to the other clan and see what its like.

I guess the whole point of the game was to see what it was like to feel left out, and weird, and culture shocked and all. Being a beta sucked. HAHA.

GAY COFFEE! (:

Quite funny la, but so aggressive all these people. But the unfortunate reality is that Singapore, Hong Kong, major cities are all like that. Competition, money minded. Inevitable i guess. And seeing that I had such a hard time coping with being a Beta, I had a glimpse of what my chances will be out there in the real world.

I'd much rather be an Alpha! ): So fun. HOW'S YOUR FATHER HOW'S YOUR GRANDFATHER HOW'S YOUR BROTHER.
HAHAHA.

So funz.

And so during the debrief, we were asked what our schools were like, and I'm so thankful IJ is like the Alpha culture. Jing Wei said that she's so glad to be in a mission school. I'm glad too. St Paul's is so Alphian too. Sigh.

We either sink or swim, right?

After Crossroads, zhe awesomezz, (Omg it was the last day seeing all of them!): we went to Julia's house. the place has no privacy manz! Every house can see the comings and goings of the escalator. So even if you want to pick your nose or something, there will be like 30 storeys of houses watching you.

CREEPOZOID TTUM! I love haagen daaz! (: We had a crazy chat time. Everyone was so low on morale, and you should have seen sam when she found out stuff about -- & ---.

But its not true anyway. Sam's fuel is gossip. I'm serious la... Gossip's not good. I was like.
ughz.

But it was fun observing Sam's hyperventilation laugher. It caught on, and we had an awesome sauce of a time.

2009-11-28T23:45:00.003+08:00

This sucks. its my last day in Hong kong and I feel as if I haven't fulfilled the trip to its fullest.

Starts out with the fact that i only went to to St Pauls for 4 days, and just got to know many awesome people, but didn't have the time to just hea with them. And I feel like i'm just warming up to the trip and the people.

But today's tour, our last day in Hong Kong was such a waste of time.
Gah. I wish i could take it all back and just spend it all with my buddies. I think i've become closer to Rachel, in a sense that she tells me private things only when we're alone. I don't know, never really talked to her about such private matters before. Hahaha. Time's dumb.

The fact that she's really open about her family and her political views. omg this one ah. Super involved in politics. And in one way or another we influence each other. HAHA. Today we met kaelazzzz (: ultimate glam la all of themmm.

Our tour guide today was uber gay! Gucci bag know that one! Could smell his nicotine from a mile away. ew. Boys and gurs. Camblas. (What the hell is a cambla!?)

New Territories -> -> -> Niu Predators.
Wishing Tree -> -> -> Wishingstreet.

ZOMG PLEASE.
Geez. super waste of time.

But I managed to go last minute shopping, i'm actually surprised at myself.
But i don't want to leave, as cliche as it is, nobody ever wants to leave.
The aussie exchange students were also just warming up to us only when they found out it was our last day today. SADDD!

Blah.

I feel like crying. Its like the last time we have together. Everr.
We'll never be together like, together again.
AH.
this sucks.

I love Hong Kong.

2009-11-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

Note to self.

- ninety-nine pennies.
- the great scheme of things.
- everybody wants to be-anchor.
- Love like wine
- the yardstick of all cuteness
- Cold hands, warm hearts.

Wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone

And it all seems so hopeless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land

And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles spend their time collapsing

Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough

It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago

And I feel stuck watching history repeating
Yeah who am I just a kid who knows he's needy

2009-11-16T20:10:00.001+08:00

Greetings from Hong Kong.
Hey guys! I'm here (:

It feels like Singapore except half the temperature.
Geez.
Miss you guys muchaz. I'm so disorientated, but everything's been good so far. my hands are freezing off so i'll end here (:

2009-11-12T22:34:00.002+08:00

You want to hear bad?
I'll tell you bad.

Bad is waiting outside school for half an hour with wet glittery letters piled on top another with a bag full of art materials, and giant flimsy cardboard pieces.

And to top it off, grey clouds, sweat, and hurting heels. (from dance)

Geez.
I hope other people put in as much effort.
Well, glad to say that Michelle, Maria, Diyanah and I can take full credit for making the dance board bloody awesome.

Yes.
:)

It shall be.

Newfound

2009-11-10T22:40:00.002+08:00

Got this newfound obsession with 500 Days. Together with nut(<3!!) style="text-align: center;">

HAVE A SAFE TRIP CHIANG RAI GIRLZX.

What kind of photo quality is this! Its dreamy!

Something oddly enchanting about Autumn.

Truly Julie, its another day.

2009-11-08T16:08:00.000+08:00

I went to church today.
:)

And i've still been trying to figure out since yesterday,
why people behave the way they do.

I'm not anyone to judge.
But it just makes me wonder.

2009-11-05T21:25:00.001+08:00

Get your dance on.

Hi!
Just a small short post to let you know I'm still alive.
Barely anyway.

Reasons why God is good.

2009-11-01T16:31:00.002+08:00

Hello. I've been meaning to share this thing i heard from Ming Xiu a couple of weeks ago.

A professor told his students in a lecture, "I can prove to you that God is evil."
"God created all things in this world right?"
The students nodded.
"And evil is in this world. So if God created all things, and evil is in this world,
that means that God is evil."
The students remained silent.

Then a boy stood up.
"Sir, I can prove you wrong."
"Go ahead an try," the professor challenged.

"Do you agree that there is darkness in this world?"
"Of course!"
"Do you agree that this world has cold?"
"Yes..."

"Sir, darkness is simply an absence of light,
the cold is a result of the absence of heat. So the world is evil because of the absence of God in the heart of man."

With that, the boy sat down...

And, the professor was silent.

I want to keep fireflies in a jar.

2009-10-31T21:53:00.002+08:00

http://Camiloo.deviantart.com/art/Soundwaves-and-City-Lights-142015470

Would you believe me if I said I was tired of this?

Where have all the good friends gone

2009-10-22T21:42:00.003+08:00

I've been on an emotional melt down for the past few days.

Because look at my CRAZY schedule.

Friday - Council meeting.
Monday - Dance.
Tuesday - Leadership training, Dance, RAW concert.
Wednesday - Leadership training, Dance, Pre-HK trip prac @ SJI
Thursday - Pre-HK trip prac @ SJI
Friday - Justin's birthday party.

geeez.
Hong Kong is taking up SOOOO much of my time.
And this year, the timing's not right, so much so that I have the opportunity of missing both council camp and dance camp, and though i didn't show it in school, i'm pretty sore about the whole thing. I mean, I guess its pretty selfish to think that they should change the whole thing just for me, but i mean, to miss both?

I might as well not be in council OR dance. Plus, its DANCE camp. Nothing I want to do more than to spend the last days with our Sec 4 seniors. I missed seniors' farewell last year, and this year i have to miss our first ever dance camp.

I mean.
Timing cuts me no slack at all. Whatsoever.
Geez so much so that i cried for two hours while my parents tried reasoning with me, about calling of hong kong.

Now I just wished i never sign up. But i have to make another silly commitment and compromise my social life and sacrifice dance and council, which honestly, I haven't been on track with. But I just can't let my HK friends down, and cause such a hassle for the lfight arrangements and whatever, its just unwanted attention, that i really really don't need. Gah. my parents just don't understand that, and think that its okay to get out of the hong kong thing, but its not

The thing is, I just don't know how much longer I can take the 'had to be there's' and everything. I don't want to spend the next year, in council or in dance, with all my peers around me(I can just picture this), "Hey remember what happened at ______ camp?" Eye contact, moment of silence, laughter and giggles. And then suddenly, somehow, my invisibility cloak comes on.

Its not as if I'm not having problems with not being that big in dance. Sure sure, i know everyone and everything, but i feel like a letdown for something i love so much.

So the only way I can make up for that is to do the Dance board, which I'm put in charge of. And its not that i want to do it, but the deadline's in December, and I am going to be in hong kong for TWOOOOO long weeks.

I don't mind going on vacation, but i wish there was something productive I could do WHILE i was there. But i thought of a way of being at dance camp, not physically, but dancers shall see when the time comes. I just don't want to come back for dance and be left out all over again. I never really fit in, I mean some way or other, some dancers are closer to each other, they always seem to go out and get through to the same auditions, and partner up during class or something, and i'm just the extra. All the time.

because of AEP, that's the other thing. My commitment to AEP has not only deprived me of every Tuesday's worth of socialising(I'm not exaggerating, and if you were me, you'd understand), but its also caused me my technique, and ZAKI. I know Zaki's hard and everything, but that's the WHOLE point. I mean, I don't understand why people wanna skip Zaki, though he can push you to tears, and make single handedly KILL your feet just by sitting in his chair, but its GOOD.

This is what improving looks like. And i can't do that, because of AEP, i can't get the techniques, or training my mind to catch up with choreo fast, and because of the accumalation of being Zaki-less, there goes my shot of even being CLOSE to SYF 2011. I mean the rest of the girls will have prior training and be used to Zaki.

I can't underestimate them and think I'm good enough. That's just arrogance. And I've seen the huge leap in improvement, so yeah. I'll probably be an unaccomplished dancer by the time a graduate.

but i'm beyond the point of quitting anything.
I can't back out of anything. of council, of dance, of AEP, of Hong Kong.
I just can't.

I just wonder it'd be like if I didn't care that much.
And i did.

I'd probably be liked alot less.
I can't stand resting on my laurels all day.
Nobody cuts me any slack.

One slip, and the world falls on you.
Some people just gave it so good.

And I think everyone just overestimates me. My mum says I have to say 'No' some time or other.
But i have to look to God and ask Him why he put me there.
He has so many challenges for me, but the only, sole motivation that keeps my alive and kicking is that, geez. God put me here.

He has a reason and a reason for that reason for putting me through all of this.
Just think, if I'm able to do this, if I'm able to conquer all this, I'll just be...
bionic woman.

I guess you see, that's what the world does to you.
I barely have time for a social life
And i'm quite sad that the Toots have gone down the drain
There. I said it.

But none can deny it.
Its just a big pity.
Just lost a group of friends that meant so much to me
its just lost.

And I seem to be the only one bothered by it, because the rest of them have time to fit in somewhere else, whereas I, as usual am sitting on the fence.

I just know people.
But i don't FIT in.
And the ones that genuinely know me can't be there(physically) for me all the time.

And so while I'm obsessing over Jack's Mannequin, a verse in "Dark Blue" has just been replaying and replaying over again.

"Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?"
Yes.
I am sinking into a pit of emptiness, where people are just aiming at me, and yeah, as my mum says, she thinkgs this is a happy problem because I have the liberty of choosing and deciding what things to sacrifice, because I have so much potential.

But I question my capability sometimes. What have I done to get this reputation of being able to do stuff so well. The people I work with, fine yeah, but.

its just different.
I wish someone else were in charge sometime.
Without a word, i always KNOW i'm going to be pinpointed.
So i just have to go along with it.

So i have so many mountains in front of me, but God's grace is my fuel.
Right now i'm just in a valley.

And.. WOW this post is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo contradictory. But you don't realise that as I type, I think (at least one good habit I cultivated this year), and as i THINK, things change. Realization and revelation occur.

Trust me, this post wasn't initially supposed to end like this.
It was angsty.
I was going to bitch about my brother, and he IS. Its just that i'm oging to keep that to myself now.

but this is how the post ends.
I'm still pretty melancholic. I'm still searching for what our IJ graduates have found : True friends. Because I think we're losing our patriotism.

We're not IJ anymore.
We're just a school thats been around for a long time.
I just want those "IJ friends are friends for life" thing. I mean look at my mum and her friends, I even wonder whether my mum ever felt left out. She was busy too. But maybe her case is different. She has 4 siblings.

but I wonder if my friends will be friends for life, because now, friends i've known forever, and mean the world (and more) to me, are suddenly becoming distant like I never imagined, and like geez. SOMEONE needs to take a chill pill and lend me a ear.

Where have all the good times gone.

(I'd like to emphasise again on how long I cried for dance camp and council camp yesterday)

Say Goodnight and Go

2009-10-20T22:31:00.002+08:00

Aaw, i've got bad reviews on 500 Days of Summer, although the trailer looks darn kewt!
The protagonists look sooooooper cute. Zooey Deschanel and Joseph Gordon Levitt. O: WHOOP.

Hey claps for Alexis Bledel.
i have yet to watch the sisterhood of travelling pants.

ah i'm schleepy. buybuy.

I've been loved, I've been lied to

2009-10-10T18:04:00.002+08:00

One down, 7 to go.

Man i can't wait to be free.
Although its streaming, people don't seem to be caring
instead everyone's planning for post exam period.

I've also come to a conclusion that I want to name my children Audrey and Leslie.

Should I trust my printers ink To express the things I think?

2009-10-08T18:57:00.005+08:00

Random things I'm thinking.

#1 I want a bedroom like this that outlooks the street.
I want to sit in my bed, to lie, to sleep, to read, to contemplate,
to write, to sing.

But then again, this means I can't jump on it.

#2 I want my wedding photos to be very interesting like this.
Hence a photogenic husband.

#3 I want a big spacey clean, green field, in mid autumn, to
run about with my friends, to jump to sing, to frolic, and get high.
To photograph.
And at night, the big open field serve as blankets for us to lie in,
and discuss the crossroads and junctions that life brings us to.

#4 I want hair like Karla Deras, and i think she's extremely pretty,
even though she's too curvy and booms around the thighs for my liking. I like her accessories
but not her clothes. I think that she chooses cool locations for photos.

#5 I want to discover more cool places to take photos.
Secret places to photograph with my dear friends.

#6 I want to inherit my dad's many manual SLRs
so I can produce killer double exposures like this.

#7 I pity Shylock. I think deep down, he's a cute old man.

#8 I haven't sat on the Singapore Flyer.

#9 I want to design my own fashion line though I know its hard work,
and I know I probably won't make it big. I want to photograph the shoots myself, too.

#10 I'm a failure and music and hope to change that by trying to master 3 instruments in mind.
I wish not to be a jack of all trades anymore.
(And i'm totally digging that head dress)

2009-10-06T21:49:00.002+08:00

Man. Emo hair, now i'll never know what earrings
I was wearing. Geez, my hair was so much nicer back then.

My brother's best photo. He's growing into
such a pretty boy! He looks better than me!

My cousin got Student of the Year award for saving his friend's life. Is he not the most dashing?
O:

Cool not.

I remember wanting to marry him when i was ages younger.
Haha, good old days.

Life is Wonderful

2009-10-05T19:58:00.000+08:00

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

2009-10-03T22:13:00.002+08:00

May the best of your todays be the worst of your tomorrows.

Justin : I don't think I'll get a girlfriend when I'm a teenager, mum.

I promise that the women I love will be you, por por and jie jie.

At least while I'm still a teenager.

Sho schweet. :D

Reasons why I love mum.

2009-09-26T17:25:00.003+08:00

I've never said this before but i love the fact that my mum's a doctor.

Now don't take this that I'm showing off.

Well of course I'm proud of my mum, and that she's such a strong, independent woman, the fact that she's a working mum, with a sense of humour, wonderful, faithful servant of God, and the fact that she saves lives.

It was because of God that she decided to be a doctor, not because of the pressure of her older sister or my grandma. But the fact that she found that she had to find a way to satisfy the physical need of man before the spiritual requirement of God. Thus she pursued this job, and she's still faithfully working as hard as she was in medical school.

Yes mummy.

So many people nowadays want to be doctors because of the money and the status.

Who does it for the passion anymore?

Those are real doctors.

Prof Kirpal Singh said this yesterday. "When people are sick, they need healing. They go to a doctor and ask for healing, not a cure. Any technician can give a cure, only a true doctor can give healing. Nowadays, our young doctors are no more than technicians."

by the way, Europe-anaesthesia conferences take them around the world.

This year was Italy, which we failed to go for because of H1N1,

and next year is Finland. OOOOOOOOOOOO:

I've got a list of places I wanna go. Mum's also decided to save money up for travelling instead of furnishing our house. HAHA (:

I love mum.

1. Budapest, Hungary

2. Milan/Venice, Italy

3. Paris, France

4. Ireland

5. Finland

6. Iceland

7. Florida

8. Sweden/Norway

9. Oregon.

10. New York.

I'd also like to revisit, Hervey Bay(+ Fraser)

Amsterdam(Holland), Scotland, London,

Alaska and LA.

(You notice its mostly Europe, because I love their diverse culture and their ability to speak like, 3 languages)

La Promisa

2009-09-22T21:25:00.003+08:00

I went to catch Il Divo's 2009 The Promise World Tour, yesterday @ ze Singapore Indoor Stadium.

WHOOTWHOOT. I think they're really something, its not your usual cuppa tea, for one thing, they're pretty young, and they've got a rojak of musical training from pop, to heavy metal to opera.

And they're from all over the world, David's from America, Sebastian's from France, Urs is from Switzerland and Carlos is from Spain.

COOL HUH. And they just sing so many songs so well, they're a real entertaining bunch, clad in classic Armani suits and flawless complexions, Il Divo was to die for.

Except I have to say that Carlos is the single most disgusting, creepozoid of a man to ever walk the planet. EW. So POSER. And you wonder why he's divorced. tkstsk. =/ Wanted to PEEUKE.
"Hello Ladies, did you miss me? Its great to be back, hello to all the pretty ladies in Singapore"
EWEW.
This isn't even the worst part.
"Did you miss me? Miss the little curl? My phone number is..."

EEEEEEEEEW. My mum and I were like AAAAAAAAWRH SHADDUP SHADDUP.

Yeah and for once, my mum likes the American.

SEB'S THE HOTTEST LA, mummy thinks he looks stoned. and urs of course is our resident lizard, his hair's atrocious. But his voice is the best, Carlos just tries to outsing everyone.
So though I have triple eyelids today, I'm glad I went for the tour,

They sang Passera, and that's all that matters cuz it was ORHSUM. And the graphics were amaaaaz-ing.

"I LOVE YOU SEBASTIAN!"
"What was that?" (SINGAPOREAN YOU SEE)
"I LOVE YOU!"
"Oh, well I love you too!"
-Screams-

I will be the pattern of all patience

2009-09-22T21:16:00.002+08:00

I will say nothing.

Hello guys, Well I'll tell you, Sunday's sermon was brilliantly superb.
But it was one of those really really rare times, okay actually the first, and hopefully the last,
where I feel absolutely frustrated (in church) for some reason that I'm not conscious of.

And i dunno, maybe a hangover from Sunday or something, but this week's been turning out pretty grr, and it seems no good comes out of anything, and i'm pretty peeved, Mostly because Idk what's happening.

RAH. I know the sun will shine again, but right now its so cloudy I can't make head or tail of anything.

Maybe its because of the accumulation of little itty bitty things I've failed to tell other people, or feelings I've refused to confront, maybe some traces of anger or irritation, but I never knew it could amount to something as big as this.

Or perhaps I worry too much, maybe its just the seasonal concentration of protesterone every now and then.

Only in Singapore

2009-09-17T21:57:00.002+08:00

We had a debate yesterday about whether Singlish should be accepted and encouraged, and because I always seem to be on the receiving end of the harder topic, I got to do the proposition.

And in my journal I had put down ALL my thoughts on why Singlish should be banished or something, but I managed to sieve out some reasons why it shouldn't, and I realise Singlish, though, is NATIVE, and I don' t think, as hard as we may try, I don't ever think we can fully get rid of it.

Well, yes the good and the bad. As I said in the battle, I think that Singlish has become such a strong element of Singapore culture that we just wouldn't be Singapore without Singlish.

And I think its fine, some stuff, that we have our own words, because nothing phrases it better than Singlish, other countries also have slang, per se, a 'you-ee' (U-turn iin Aussie), or fo' shizzle ma 'nizzle (In the US).

so you have they have, why i cannot have? BUAY SONG AH!

Yes well, but I also do agree that its pretty disgracefulu to a certain extent, so i think Singlish should be accepted, but not encouraged. I think we should make the effort to speak properly first, and then just resort to Singlish amongst our peers.

however, whilst conversing with foreigners, I really think we should put up a good front, and not be ANYTHING like Ris Low.

When Singapore becomes a gracious nation then shall Singlish be rid of this country.

Melodramatic.

2009-09-13T20:31:00.000+08:00

Something beautiful about the way you look tonight.

Today was such a beawesome day.
I never felt more attached to church.

Aah, sweet sovereignty.

2009-09-12T14:23:00.000+08:00

The future scares me,
The past amuses me,
Thinking mesmerizes me,
and time catches up with me.

how many times do you set love free, before you know it's supposed to be?

2009-09-10T20:30:00.001+08:00

Blue like my hands
Blue like my heart
I drown inside
So it came that i settled for
This raft in mind
Drift away, away, away down

You never fell i picked you up
I'm waking up early
No one ever feels like they're perfect
But i feel we're perfect here

I've got to speak
My eyes can't keep this secret down and gone away
I'm feeling it shouldn't be long until we both remember why
Why we kept each other around all this time

I sensed you'd come around, boy
And here we stand
It is so strange how we've come so far and nothing's changed

We are what we are
Come so far
To keep me down and gone away
I'm feeling it shouldn't be long until we both remember why
Why we kept each other around all this time

Art's just alot of wasted paper

Get a load of me.

2009-09-09T22:00:00.001+08:00

Happy 13th Nicole Lim (:

I need to catch up.
I need to reconnect.
I need to revitalise.
I need to stop sounding like a gatorade commercial.
I need to keep in tact.
I need to get a hold on myself.
I need to be serious.
I need to start studying hard.

I think I've found some mad passion in writing poems for people.
The kind that don't rhyme.

The kind that is paradoxical to its title.
The kind where I can just pick any word from the dictionary and incorporate feeling and meaning in it and eventually reconnect it with that word.
The kind that has a 10 syllable verse ring to it like Shakespeare texts.

:D

When I can't feel you, I've learned to reach out just the same.

2009-09-09T13:08:00.000+08:00

The Last Song is a great book to read (: Just finished it within 24 hours, its a must read. HAHA, that is if you're someone who likes happy endings like I do.

But i think Nicholas Sparks doesn't have much variation, comparing it with A Walk To Remember, its pretty much similar, but nonetheless i think he's quite a cool writer, descriptive and metaphorical.

Well not one to say, i've only read this one. Just wanted to pick up something I don't usually read because I haven't had time to read a book in ages. I also started on my Christmas cards :D

Tryna use the mac to upload Brisbane fotos, but wouldn't you believe it, FB is doing fine, but the Mac can't read my memory card.

Some mad hope

2009-09-06T23:49:00.000+08:00

beautiful people, beautiful souls.
don't look down with a bitter heart.
Solemn souls, your sadness won't be for long.
You've got it in you, time will undoubtfully heal.
Look up, see the sun, the window of heaven.
Worry nor fret not, the kingdom awaits you.
The gates have been thrown right open.

I've found the innermost tender part of several people today,
God bless you all. You've moved me today, before this, I just never knew.

TNG nurtures wonderful souls. I'm so glad for them, really.

Spirit Man

2009-09-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

The one man band, reduced to sand,
A darling so dear, caused more than a tear,
Gone in a flash, reduced to ash,
A bind, a tie, all gone in a blink of an eye.
Hold on my love, you've got a call from above.
No no, lay still, see that white light, it goes beyond the hill.

For the one that's been called home to the Lord, bless you and your wonderful family.

Goodbye Goodbye

2009-08-28T16:42:00.000+08:00

Hasta la visa, sayonary, angyong,BYEEEEE.

In 24 hours, I'll be in the land down under :D

To play Barbie dolls with an 8 year old and scare the wits out of our Aussie host famz with Erin. (:

But you guys have fun in Singapore! HAHAHA.

Need a little more help than a lil bit

2009-08-25T21:49:00.002+08:00

Super count down 3 MORE DAYS
I REALLY HOPE I HAVE FUN (:

yaaaay.

Eyes speaking of an endless grief
Lips open to a wordless cry
Let's share the love we take for granted
Try to keep their last hopes alive

Hands reaching for their loved ones lost
Hearts holding to a flickering dream
Let's share the love we waste away
Show them that the world truly cares

Caritas, share the love
That they are missing inside
Caritas, take the step
To reach out to the other side
There's so much we can give if we dare
To the lost and forgotten out there
Caritas, share the love, share the love

Smiles breaking through those hardened faces
A gift to us that makes us whole
Let's share the peace our maker gave us
Making our souls feel alive

Caritas share the love that they are missing inside
Caritas take a step to reach out to the other side
There’s so much we can give if we dare
To the lost and forgotten out there
Caritas share the love, share the love

Caritas share the love that they are missing inside
Caritas take a step to reach out to the other side
There’s so much we can give if we dare
To the lost and forgotten out there
Caritas share the love, share the love
Caritas share the love, share the love
Caritas share the love, share the love

Classic.

Apparently, I'm not entitled to making mistakes.

2009-08-23T22:08:00.000+08:00

I know I shouldn't feel this way.

):

If they could see how much you're worth,
Your power your might your endless love.

I have no mood to post.

Invest was both good and bad

Bad in a sense I had a bad hair day, blazer murdered and court shoes = high.

good in a sense, i made new friends and took piczxtures. (:

Congruency.

2009-08-18T22:17:00.000+08:00

Emily Brontë (1818-1848)
HOPE Was but a timid friend;
She sat without the grated den,
Watching how my fate would tend,
Even as selfish-hearted men.

She was cruel in her fear;
Through the bars one dreary day,
I looked out to see her there,
And she turned her face away!

Like a false guard, false watch keeping,
Still, in strife, she whispered peace;
She would sing while I was weeping;
If I listened, she would cease.

False she was, and unrelenting;
When my last joys strewed the ground,
Even Sorrow saw, repenting,
Those sad relics scattered round;

Hope, whose whisper would have given
Balm to all my frenzied pain,
Stretched her wings, and soared to heaven,
Went, and ne'er returned again!

I know why the caged bird sings by Maya Angelou

A free bird leaps on the back
Of the wind and floats downstream
Till the current ends and dips his wing
In the orange suns rays
And dares to claim the sky.

But a BIRD that stalks down his narrow cage
Can seldom see through his bars of rage
His wings are clipped and his feet are tied
So he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
Of things unknown but longed for still
And his tune is heard on the distant hill for
The caged bird sings of freedom.

The free bird thinks of another breeze
And the trade winds soft through
The sighing trees
And the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright
Lawn and he names the sky his own.

But a caged BIRD stands on the grave of dreams
His shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
His wings are clipped and his feet are tied
So he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings with
A fearful trill of things unknown
But longed for still and his
Tune is heard on the distant hill
For the caged bird sings of freedom.

The matching bags, the hair the shoes
These people have no spine
Sucked into a world where face value matters
They sell their souls to be each other's clones
Where are the times where nobody cared
What you looked like or where you went?
Down the drain, through the gutter,
Where the rest of their real selves lie.
These congruent figures who've lost their dimensions
Individualism doesn't play a role here anymore.
Don't matter if you lose yourself, as long as we look the same
For we will be judged to death if we were to look like what we were before we came.

The world beyond FB.

2009-08-17T22:11:00.000+08:00

I aim to write a poem for everyone whom i'm giving Christmas cards to. :D

Well, I made new friends in council today. Haha, and i'm broke. eegads.

Mmm.

I came up with one for jamie & ry alr. Uhhhhhhh.

I'm bushed. ):

one million tests or something.

Cait choo is a nice ger.

Oh and i wrote choo a poem because she wrote one for me, oh aren't we just jolly good friends.

I don't like the idea of direct confrontation, so I'll just be a coward as usual.

Its probably not what i think it is anyway.

But its always nice to be ~~constantly~~ reassured.

2009-08-14T20:47:00.000+08:00

My brother screwed up cable tv.

:S

Mum's on the line with starhub.
And I suddenly can't wait for Christmas.
I'm so excited, I have ideas for Christmas cards and Christmas presents.

I think I'll make my Christmas cards quirky, personal and small this year.

(:

No time anywayzyzx.
Zomg I know what I want for Christmas.

Chainmail earrings and a dark grey fedora!
OOOH! And a webcam. Haha yes but everyone knows I'm not allowed to have Christmas presents.
Its just not right.

Loved typing the long random thread to Nicole Seah's friend. HAHAH! They're having a competition to see who can write longer emails, and i helped.

Heuyuhszzz I'm super kewl ones. I think @hl!ianszx are zee most orhsumhherst p300plezxzxz in zee wh0llle wiid3 w0rLLdzx w0rhzxz.

ii3zx t3llzx euuzx arhhzxz, i w!ll callz miie urgly b0iiflenzx t2 c0memdzx and b3atzx euzxzx upzz w0rhhzx. >: (

let me recite my ultimate pro-ness of Merchant of Venice lines for you.
IN SOOTH I KNOW NOT WHY I AM SO SAD.
IT WEARIES ME, YOU SAY IT WEARIES YOU,
BUT HOW I CAUGHT IT, FOUND IT OR CAME BY IT I AM YET TO LEARN.

YOUR MIND IS TOSSING ON THE OCEAN.
...

NVM SKIP TO SOLANIO CUZ HE HAS A NICE, HOT PERSON SOUNDING NAME AND I'M PLAYING HIM. :D

BELIEVE ME SIR, HAD I SUCH A VENTURE FORTH, THE BETTER PART OF MY AFFECTIONS WOULD BE WITH MY HOPES ABROAD.
I SHOULD BE STILL PLUCKING THE GRASS TO KNOW WHERE SITS THE WIND, PEERING IN MAPS FOR PORTS AND PIERS AND ROADS AND EVERY OBJECT THAT MIGHT MAKE ME FEAR MISFORTUNE TO MY VENTURES, OUT OF DOUBT WOULD MAKE ME SAD.

HELLO CAITLIN FOO IS AN ASSHOLE(: nataliee ):

AH, SO MEAN.
OKAY.
Cassandra says come early for church. Nicole
But idk.
HOW HOW HOW.
Okay nevermind.

CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE? Natalie
I did not type that. Nicole

ZAC EFRON IS SO HOTTTTT:D NATALIE

natalie dances like a rock being thrown around. SHE VELY POWER. AND CAITLIN FOO IS NOT A BEEEEPP.

Caitlin dances like a fish. cos shes a fish. bloop bloop bloop. Nat

LOL.
CAITLIN FOO THE CHIOEST GIRL IN ZE WORLD

YUCKS. Nat

Caitlin Choo discovered that Lip Smackers came to Singapore. Yum.
Erin likes Kevjumba. (Without a doubt)

Gosh I wish H&M and JayJay's were in Singapore.
OOOH and baskin robbins and krispy kreme doughnuts. I also wish gum was sold here.
And Valleygirl. And thrift stores.

I swear those Korean dudes are gay. Saw them dancing about with pink flowers in their hair. donned entirely in white with high socks and hot pants.

The good and ze bad

2009-08-14T20:45:00.001+08:00

Good news for ze day!
MY CAMERA CAN BE FIXEDDDD! AND IT DOESN’T COME UP TO ABOUT $987213076216037 DOLLAHZ.

“Ma’am, its $10 to see what the problem with the camera is.”

And its $53 for repairs.
WHOOP WHOOP DEE DOOP!

Good news #2, thus I can take picz of mona in her council uniform.

Good news #3 I topped the class in GEOG,
GEOG you know.

Bad news

I think I screwed over my math test today, and all the chinese tests that I sat for this week.

Bad news #2

Something’s wrong with my body. I feel dehydrated, yet when I drink, I need to pee every five minutes, but the moisture in my body doesn’t get replenished, I think the water doesn’t get absorbed at all, just passes through.

Cold hot dang.

There is another sky,
Ever serene and fair,
And there is another sunshine,
Though it be darkness there;
Never mind faded forests, Austin,
Never mind silent fields -
Here is a little forest,
Whose leaf is ever green;
Here is a brighter garden,
Where not a frost has been;
In its unfading flowers
I hear the bright bee hum:
Prithee, my brother,
Into my garden come!

Eyes the size of ze moon

2009-08-12T21:46:00.000+08:00

zooweemama.

Saw Mrs Redwan.
I miss her tons
She seems stressed.
like us.

:)

man oh man.

cyberfaces in great moderation.

2009-08-10T15:49:00.002+08:00

-_-

!!!!

._.

-.-

o.O

'(>.<)'

B(

Eee.

NATURE(&JERRY) ARE GIVING ME TO MANY PHOTO WORTHY MOMENTS.
THE LIGHTING IN MY BACKYARD IS BEING AMAZING HERE!!!!!
AND MY CAMERA DOES NOT WORK.
SUCKS OR WHAT.

Just because you paint a picture doesn't mean it fits the frame

2009-08-08T17:23:00.001+08:00

The fear of growing old, and doing what you're told

You can't disguise a heart while it's breaking
You hide behind the smile you're faking
It's all about the the chance you're taking
Oh, and you know that you're making it all come alive
It all come alive

If your life is so damn comfortable then why do you complain?
A reflection in the alcohol you're pouring down the drain
Just because you paint a picture doesn't mean it fits the frame
This is my West Coast intervention and I'm getting on that plane

When all of your mistakes are keeping you awake

You can't disguise a heart while it's breaking
You hide behind the smile you're faking
It's all about the the chance you're taking
Oh, and you know that you're making
You can't disguise a heart while it's breaking
You hide behind the smile you're faking
It's all about the the chance you're taking
Oh, and you know that you're making it all come alive
It all come alive

The sun is setting and it's ending 'cause you're letting it go
Forgetting everything you already know
And it all goes to show that you're moving to slow
It will end up changing you, it will end up changing you

You can't disguise a heart while it's breaking
You hide behind the smile you're faking
It's all about the the chance you're taking
Oh, and you know that you're making

Life flies by so you have to embrace it
Forget the past 'cause you cannot erase it
And live the dream, and learn to chase it
And when you can almost taste it
It's all come alive
It's all come alive
It's all come alive
It's all come alive

MY FAVOURITE HIGHWAY (:

Okay, I shall go check out what Chris finds so awesome about Nevershoutnever!
But i like MFH! (:

STEVE MOAKLER.

Yes I am happy.

Pick myself up and ready to go

2009-08-07T14:21:00.001+08:00

Where's everyone and what have you done to them?

It wearies me you say it wearies you

2009-08-06T21:59:00.001+08:00

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

Stuff that's crossing my mind right now.

1. I want to do an MJ flashmob like Mr Tang suggested.
2. I hate it when teachers give us work that they don't collect.
3. My hair trim's screwed, i can't believe my mum's jealous.
4. Things are burning holes in my pockets.
5. I've got a mental block and all the interesting things I was thinking from just now are gone.
6. AEP is killing me slowly.
7. I need to do better for Lit, History, Chinese and Math.
8. Things are changing too fast.
9. I wonder how physically fit I'll be when I'm 60.
10. I wonder what happens to blogs after 10 years or so.
11. I need to photoshop soon.
12. There should be more hours in a day.
13. I need to paste this : "HAHA! Keep it short then (:

My commitments just got upped. I'm gonna be like eu ): Sleep deprived. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE LONG WEEKEND.
You cut hair I cut hair also!

Zomg i look like some goondoo." On david's wall because FB is... -.-
14. I really like Chia's house.
15. I wonder if the voices in my head are telling me the right thing.
16. My capability of self control is very low.
17. I got a glimpse of the beauty of Romeo and Juliet for a moment before everything turned cheesy again.
18. Politicians should not be allowed to write books.
19. I hope the new mall @ Maju avenue isn't like Heartland mall. =/
20. I wonder what on earth will make me feel less sleepy.

2009-08-03T22:07:00.000+08:00

I wonder if its meant to feel like this.
I have the benefit of the doubt, and i need to be affirmed by someone pretty soon.

Oh well.
No worries, I will be strong.

Is it me or is everyone totally PMSing my way?
Omg.

We have ting xie tomorrow.
Its 10.10 now, i just realised.

I didn't bring home the book.

I've been overwhelmed alot, I think its time I calm down and submit all these things to God.

Jon Chan "Our flabs belong to God too!"

HAHAH!

^^

2009-08-03T22:06:00.000+08:00

Wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone

And it all seems so hopeless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land

And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles spend their time collapsing

Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough

It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago

And I feel stuck watching history repeating
Yeah who am I just a kid who knows he's needy

I've got a stomachache.

2009-08-02T22:07:00.000+08:00

HAHA HI GUYS

SORRY I HAVEN'T BEEN UPDATING.
BUT BLOGGER FORMAT REALLY PISSES ME OFF.

Okay so here's all i can remember from the week!

Monday - YOGA HURTS LIKE CRAZY. I just want to kill some Tibetians who made up the sun salutation.
Tuesday - AAH THEY LEARNT THE SYF DANCE WHILE I WAS STUCK IN AEP.

There was the super darn smexy model @ a photoshoot @ parliament house while we were there.
And i couldn't stop staring la, STICK LEGS AND THE COOLEST SHOES.
I've established that Valerie's my VALGALPAL.
And I'm her CAITMATE.

<3!

Yay. Some works were cool, especially LOOK BEYOND THE DRESS. OMG I TOTALLY WANT THAT TO BE ON DISPLAY AT MY WEDDING. IT'LL BE COOLER THAN ICE SCULPTURE. its plastic and will last forever. The polarities was cool, and I really love the bird book by Priscilla Tey.

AWESOMEZ.

Lots of couples there. YUCK TAN NIAN AI HEN GROSS.

Yeahz.
I wish i had those model's legs. and shoes.

Oh well.

On wednesday, I managed to learn the SYF dance.

coolz.

I'm kinda scared for next tuesday now.

Thurs - WE GOT JABBED ):
Painz. I have neh heard two people talk more animatedly and passionately about guinea pigs, I DIDN'T KNOW YOU HAD A GUINEA PIG, JAMIE.
anw, yes Erin and Caitlin were soooper CARTOON! blah blah blah tunnel blah you know guinea pigs can catch some disease, blah blah.
HAHAH!

O:

After our jab we went to eat @ Subway. I REALISE NOVENA SQUARE IS QUITE NICE. i saw nicole mao! (:
When she was out of hearing distance, Erin squealed ultimate coolness about her surname (:

HAHAH! MAO MAO. Nicole mao's funny.

Fuhriday, srsly TGIF TGIF TGIF! point of distress to go to fith convention or not. ZOMG!
I... uh. Went home with Tiff and saw Ashley on the bus.
(Y)

Sigh.

Its monday again ):
OH well, always can look forward to next weekend. Until its holiday time.
:D

2009-07-31T20:45:00.000+08:00

Walking, stumbling
On these shadowfeet
Toward home, a land that I've never seen

I am changing
Less and less asleep
Made of different stuff than when I began

And I have sensed it all along
Fast approaching is the day

[Chorus]
When the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standin'
When the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees
When time and space are through
I'll be found in you

There's distraction
Buzzing in my head
Saying in the shadows it's easier to stay

But I've heard rumours
Of true reality
Whispers of a well-lit way

When the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standin'
When the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees
When time and space are through
I'll be found in you

You make all things new
You make all things new
You make all things new
You make all things
You make all things

When the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standin'
When the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees
When time and space are through
I'll be found in you

When the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standin'
Every fear and accusation under my feet
When time and space are through
I'll be found in you
When time and space are through
I'll be found in you
When time and space are through
I'll be found in you

Picture this

2009-07-26T21:30:00.000+08:00

Your feet on fire,
your heart aflame,
your throat scorching,
your brain on vertigo,
your arms weak from the heat,
your limbs falling apart,
pespiration on your cheeks,
the redness boiling right into your veins.

That's what I describe my 2.4km run to be.